Members naty0123 Posted August 21, 2012 Members Report Share Posted August 21, 2012 Well our daughter started back to school and an I have spireled down all week. I feel like I did the first week my husband passed! I hate feeling like this! I cant move on to do anything and I just cant keep going like this! It is so freaking hard! I try to get the strength to move forward a little each day and just cant. I miss him so much. So much has changed already since he's been gone. I can not believe how things just move on. It's like everything is moving on , but my mind and heart and pain are the same so how do I function????? I have to find work because I had to shut our business down cant do it without him and I dont even know where to begin! I have been self-employed for years and now going back to work for someone is so scary. I just want my life back with him. I miss him so much that it just consumes me and I have to be strong for our daughters and that is very hard to do. Our 10 year old has grown up a little faster through all of this! I dont if its because I'm a mess and she sences it or if its just the experience of loosing her dad! Life sucks!!!!!I close my eyes and day dream on how it use to be! HE WAS MY EVERYTHING AND THEIR IS NOTHING LIKE HIM!!!! I miss his laugh, jokes, smell, grouchyness, touch, support, green eyes..just everything! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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