Members BellaWa Posted August 15, 2012 Members Report Share Posted August 15, 2012 I lost my Dad on the 22nd of July after a very long battle with a rare lung disease. He was only 50 years old. I'm 23 and I just graduated from college in May. I still live at home with my parents. My Dad's illness started to get a lot worse at the end of April, so I spent my summer helping my Mom take care of him. It was a horrible roller coaster. We never considered him terminal, even though he was on hospice. We hoped for a recovery until the very end. He did make progress several times, but then would have another episode and get worse. During the last weeks of his life he stayed pretty confused. It was heartbreaking watching my Dad just disappear in front of my eyes. Before we lost him he had dropped down to 110 pounds. I hated to watch him suffer, but now that he's gone I can't stand my life without him. I truly hate the idea of moving on with my life without him in it. I guess I'm just looking for some advice about how other people have handled these feelings? I'm getting ready to leave for graduate school in a couple of weeks, but I just can't regain the enthusiasm that I had for it before. I know he's in a better place, and I know I'll see him again..but I just wish he was here. I hate thinking about all the things in my life that he'll miss. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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