Members lsanders424 Posted July 25, 2012 Members Report Share Posted July 25, 2012 I am watching my closet friend die. Inch by inch, day by day, cancer is taking her. We have been friends for 50 years. We finally ended up in the same city after 30 years of life elsewhere. We had so many plans. 6 months after she arrived her she was diagnosed with stage 4 renal cell carcinoma. Treatments have failed and she is starting hospice. My problems with this are many, but I'm really having trouble with guilt. I won't let myself do anything fun...She can't, why should I. I cry a lot. Not sure if I should continue to just live for her until the end, or start living my life again now.....Totally at a loss. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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