lost my mom and my job

[handis]

I have been so busy with life since my mom's death that I have not had time to stop. That was just over 2 months ago. I have talked to some one a few times. The last time the person suggested that I maybe consider taking some time off work..I went into work on Wednesday with the intent of seeing if that could be arranged instead that I was greeted by HR and terminated. I was still on probabtion and I know that the last few months I have been having a hard time coping with daily life let alone trying to out perform everyone else. In many ways it is a relief to not have to work right now...I did get a very generous severance package so can take some time to grieve the loss of my mom.

Like I said Life had just been too busy to slow down with a number of commitments I had. The thing that has complicated it is that I started having trouble first falling asleep and then to waking up once I fell asleep. About a month ago I started not enjoying eating. Last week I started feeling queazy so I really did not feel like eating. I haven't been able to cry..everytime I feel like it life gets busy and I don't have time.

I don't feel much like going out and talking to people. I have always been the upbeat one that invites people to talk.

well that is about it for now

[ModKonnie]

I have been so busy with life since my mom's death that I have not had time to stop. That was just over 2 months ago. I have talked to some one a few times. The last time the person suggested that I maybe consider taking some time off work..I went into work on Wednesday with the intent of seeing if that could be arranged instead that I was greeted by HR and terminated. I was still on probabtion and I know that the last few months I have been having a hard time coping with daily life let alone trying to out perform everyone else. In many ways it is a relief to not have to work right now...I did get a very generous severance package so can take some time to grieve the loss of my mom.

Like I said Life had just been too busy to slow down with a number of commitments I had. The thing that has complicated it is that I started having trouble first falling asleep and then to waking up once I fell asleep. About a month ago I started not enjoying eating. Last week I started feeling queazy so I really did not feel like eating. I haven't been able to cry..everytime I feel like it life gets busy and I don't have time.

I don't feel much like going out and talking to people. I have always been the upbeat one that invites people to talk.

well that is about it for now

Handis,

That is terrible that you were terminated from your job, but perhaps it is a blessing of sorts in that now you can take a few weeks and sort through your emotions. Perhaps you will even get the chance to just cry and cry. Feeling queazy when you eat happens to many people. I had to drink those nutritional supplement drinks (Ensure or the generic version) to make sure I got enough nutrition. I couldn't sleep for months, and then I had horrible nightmares. That all started to slow down and recede after a few months, but the first year of my father's passing was difficult. It gets easier with time, but that doesn't mean I have forgotten him or don't love him. I've just adjusted. You will too, eventually.

Let us know how you are doing,

ModKonnie