Does it EVER get easier??!?!??

[AliceH]

My mother passed away in October of 2022. I now have her male dog (I have 2 of my own, my male, who has hypothyroidism, that doesn't get along with my male) and her cat who is now 17/18 years old with hyperthyroidism). The added responsibility of my mother's animals don't bother me so much as the loss of my mother.

My half sister (she WAS MY SISTER no matter what!!!!) passed away in January of 2024. These were the only 2 people in my life that I could talk to about EVERYTHING going on in my life!! Children, marriage (I'm married), health issues and etc..

I am a HSP (Highly sensitive person), I have a hard time dealing with my emotions 😞 So dealing with 2 people I considered my 2 beat friends and loosing them in such a short amount of time has taken a HUGE toll on my mental health.

I also take care of/keep an eye on my elderly neighbor who was 4 months older than my mom because her daughter lives 40 minutes away from her (us). My neighbor was also best friends with my mother.

I am a stay-at-home mom, I've always had the 'I'll take care of you' feelings since I was young (my mother was 40 and my father was 60 when I was born).

I know this story (message) is all over the place. I had a brain surgery when I was 13 years old, so trying to get everything (information about what's going on in my life) might be a bit confusing 😕 Between a husband, 3 kids, 5 animals (a rabbit included as of 3 weeks ago).

I just feel like I am slowly losing it but I hold all the sad emotions in. I went to a psychiatrist (multiple), all they want to do it put me on medications and the 4 I have been on have done nothing. I've been on uo to 150mg of affector (spelling) and no help with my saddness/depression.

I am not a religious person, I do believe in God but don't understand why he takes good people (among other reasons like why children are born with cancer). It is that I question everything with religion, I have for a long time.

I just wish someone could tell me that everything will be OK and that the pain will go away because I feel like I am lost and so alone anymore 😭💔

[always_somethin]

I'm so sorry that you've been dealing with so much pain. But you have a lot of love in your heart despite it all, and that's your superpower. I hope that you can leave room for yourself to rest, even if it's just 5 minutes of deep breathing.

The grief doesn't get easier, we just choose to get stronger. One day at a time.