1st Thanksgiving since my daughter was found dead in her apt. this year

[Mama of Angela]

Hi Everyone, It's been awhile since I've been in here. Grief is consuming me. I've always cooked a huge Thanksgiving meal with homemade pies. My daughter and I use to go for walks to find pretty Fall leaves. Then we would put them on the dining room table around the Thanksgiving meal. Now she is gone. My adult child, my baby girl is gone. I am staying here in my apartment, in pajamas all day. I don't want to see or talk to anyone. People have tried to convince me to go to a restaurant to eat. Why? I would see families there all happy and celebrating. That's wonderful for them, but traumatic for me.  My oldest daughter in South Carolina can't come up this year.  So it's me and my cat. My daughter's remains are here. Her soul is with God. She will be buried with me. She would have wanted it that way. I will watch my favorite team, The Detroit Lions play football on Thanksgiving. We had no family up here. Yes, it'll be lonely. I just hope I can get through the day without breaking down. Love, Angela's Mama

 

[KayC]

I am so sorry.  I get it.  Spend your day as you want to, not that you wanted any of this, of course you didn't.  My heart goes out to you.  I'm also alone for TG, been nearly 20 years since my husband died.