Angry

[Aus1412]

I'm angry at "that's just life".  My mom died.  As I sit here a couple of days before our first Thanksgiving without her, I'm angry.  We were a team.  We always cared for one another.  We were always in each other's lives.  I am angry that my mother cannot now care for me, and I cannot care for her.  I pictured myself stranded somewhere.  My mother would come in the split of a second.   As you're dying, is your fear  how the world will treat your children?  That you're leaving them without your protection.  That must be horrible.  Even if you have prepared them for life, that must be horrible.

[Mattarga]

Aus,

I completely understand why you would be angry at that phrase. It encompasses way too much grief and pain. Yes, the world should be afraid of leaving their children behind when something happens to them, as we are living in some dark times right now. But keep coming back here and sharing what you feel, we will be here.

[Aus1412]

Thank you so much Mattarga.  Your words were so kind and so generous.   I am so sorry about your mom and your cat.  I lost my mom at the end of July this year, 2024.  My dog was put down (I don't like to say died, because I was advised to put him down which I regret, so I do not consider him to have died.  His heart was prematurely stopped),  and I remember the excrutiating pain from that in 2015.  Even though it's been almost 10 years, I still mourn him, but I am in a better place.  That's what others tell me about my mother's death and how I will react with time.  She was my heart and soul.  I loved my mom so very much.    Her living was everything to me.