A necklace for Brandon

[strawbabydolly]

Okay so my birthday was July 29 and I went shopping on that day. I bought many things and one of those things is a beautiful gold necklace with the letter B on It. I got it to wear the first initial of my baby’s name around my neck. That way he’s always with me. 

I miss him more and more each day. I still repeat romantic things he said over and over again in my head. It gives me the chills. His voice just makes me feel so happy. It’s just been really hard lately. I don’t know why. When I listen to him singing I feel happy hearing his sexy deep voice again. Hmm..I love his voice so much. But then I get sad because I remember ohh he’s not here anymore. I’ll never hear anymore songs from him again. 

You know sometimes I catch a glimpse of the photo collage I made of him with all of my favorite pictures of him on it. I made it after he died. It took me so long to make it because I just wanted it to be perfect. Putting the pictures of him together in the collage just made me miss him even more than I already do if that’s even possible.

I have the collage, the necklace, and the audio recordings of him singing his songs..like that’s all I have left of him. Friends and some people I don’t even know are pushing me to date and it’s just like..why? Like just why? I just don’t want to. I just want Brandon back. Besides dating is extremely dangerous these days and I’ve seen way too many true crime shows and heard way too many true crime stories on YouTube to risk it. 

if we’re being honest here men are starting to make me sick. But anyway my thing is if he ani’t Brandon then I don’t want him. Brandon was so beautiful. He was just perfect for and to me. I just miss everything about him. I miss his body. He had such amazing abs and pecks and muscles. He was just so muscular and dreamy. I miss his tattoos. I miss his lips, his voice, his smile, and his big beautiful brown eyes. I just miss him. I love him so much. 

I think about him every second of every day.   It’s like sometimes I can hear his voice in my head saying “I love you too baby”. Maybe it’s just wishful thinking or something I don’t know but I hope it is him. I know in my heart if he would have stayed alive and we would’ve continued being together that he would have made me the happiest woman in the world. I know that much. I would be a very happy woman. 

 

[KayC]

Don't even think about that, you are missing him and that doesn't make you available. The heart determines that.  
I'm glad you got the necklace for yourself for your birthday.  It sounds like it helps you. 💕