The weekend my husband died

[KayC]

My office computer the hard drive failed.  The back ups...odd worked on one company and even on the other, the data base I had to re-create and enter the data for 6 1/2 months, all quality control.  I worked day and night on it. George knew this and knew how much I looked forward to Sister's Weekend, where my sisters and I would get together in Lincoln City and enjoy eating out, shopping, sight seeing.  My daughter and I traveled with my sister Peggy.  After I left, George drove himself to the doctor with chest pains.  The doctor wanted to call me, George told him no, he didn't want to ruin my weekend, I'd worked hard all month, I needed this.

George, you didn't ruin my weekend, it was my LIFE!  How do you think I could enjoy my LIFE without you?!!

Not a day goes by but that I miss you.

[BohoKat]

On 9/21/2024 at 5:38 PM, KayC said:

… The doctor wanted to call me, George told him no, he didn't want to ruin my weekend, I'd worked hard all month, I needed this.

George, you didn't ruin my weekend, it was my LIFE!  How do you think I could enjoy my LIFE without you?!!

Not a day goes by but that I miss you.

Oh Kay I sent <hugs> but that doesn’t seem like enough. I understand your frustration and anger over your husband’s decision.

After a year of unsuccessful immunotherapy for liver cancer, we were in the rehab hospital. I was hopeful and ready for additional treatment when Mark told me he was ready for home hospice. He said please don’t talk me out of this it is time. I knew if I asked him he would continue treatment because he could never refuse me anything, but in retrospect I know he had no quality of life at that point. At least he passed at home as was his wish, but it was the hardest thing I never said.

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[KayC]

I don't feel angry at him, if anything I feel all the more love as I know he wanted to spare me.  But it wasn't the way, there was no sparing from this. But oh God how I love him, we always understood each other.  He was such a sweet man.

Maybe hard but you said what you felt you needed to.  (((hugs)))  We all come from a place of love and caring.