Members vanessa17 Posted May 3, 2012 Members Report Share Posted May 3, 2012 Hi everyone. My name is Vanessa and I am experiencing the most difficult loss I have ever lived through. On April 25, my older brother, Josh, was taken from us suddenly and unexpectedly. I am heartbroken. I have 2 older brothers and both have struggled with drug abuse and addiction for a large portion of their lives. One of the most difficult things to process right now is that Josh has just finished a voluntary in-patient treatment program. He was in the process of moving into his own place again from a half-way house and seemed to be piecing his life back together again. Josh was 4 years older than me. We had a sometimes strained, but an always loving relationship. I am on a grief roller coaster that I fear is just beginning. I am married with 4 kids so my daily life is readily distracting, but I can't think of much else. And I am constantly worried about my other brother who is still struggling with his addiction. He is safe right now because he is incarcerated in a special facility that also rehabilitates, but I know he is afraid of what is going to happen when he is released. I am torn between knowing that I can not enable any destructive behavior, but I also can't mourn a second brother, either still alive but lost to drugs or dead himself. I am happy to have found this group. I often turn to writing and forums to help me in life. The memorial service is this Saturday. I really love my brother. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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