Members hlee93 Posted April 21, 2012 Members Report Share Posted April 21, 2012 My older sister who was fifteen years old at the time died suddenly in 2005.. My mom who was already depressed fell into a deeper depression, and my oldest sister was having suicidal thoughts, and eventually moved out once her relationship with my mother seemed irreparable. I've had to support my mother financially the past couple of years. I don't know how, as the youngest daughter, I've been expected to cope with all of these things on my own. A lot of times I feel like I'm on auto-pilot, just going about my day keeping distracted with work and school. But once I'm alone and thinking about my sister, the tears sometimes feel endless. It feels like I still have to keep up the strong front when I'm with friends and pretend like everything's okay. Part of me feels like I should be done grieving by now. I miss her a lot and every year I think of the years that I have over her now. When people hear that she's fifteen, they think it's my younger sister who passed away. A lot of people don't know how to react; most think it's best to change topics - I'm not too sure if that's for their benefit or mine. The perfectionist in me sees that life is still going on, and I don't want to be left behind. I'm also afraid that if I do stop, I might just stop altogether. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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