Members onerugrat Posted April 2, 2012 Members Report Share Posted April 2, 2012 I lost my husband 4 years ago and for the most part I survive. I have moved on but I still feel the hurt. Sometimes I feel it will never go away. It seems as if the guilt and pain just play games in my heart and head. Since this tradegy I have lost my father to cancer in which seemed so much easier. My son in the army was hit with an IED in Afghanastan and hospitalized for a time. He has recovered but will be permantly disabled and wont be able to follow his dreams. Sad part is i truly believe if his dad were with us he would never had joined the army. Then my 20 year old daughter struggles with it as well. She also feel the guilt even though I tell her its not her fault. We can cry together but it does not go away for either of us. I sometimes just want to give up myself and just hide. I know that is not possible because I am only 50 and still have to work and go on to pay bills. Ugh when will I truly be over this!!!! I used to come to this site quite often but I stopped posting and just tried to keep busy just to cope. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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