Members LittleB88 Posted March 26, 2012 Members Report Share Posted March 26, 2012 Where to start...The facts: I very recently lost my 18-year-old brother in a skiing accident. They were in Colorado and I was at work in Chicago. I got the call and rushed home to Wisconsin right away. We were surrounded by support (too much sometimes). The funeral and the burial happened. I had to go back to work. It's been two weeks, and I don't know how I feel. Sometimes I almost feel ok. Other times, it feels like my life is falling apart. I'm exhausted and I just want things to go back to the way they were. I go from one temperature extreme to another. Time doesn't have meaning-I'm either late or early, and don't seem to have a grasp on if time is going fast or slow. I get almost panicky if people leave, like I won't see them again. When I first went home, even my dad going to the store freaked me out. I have an appointment with a counselor, but honestly, I don't really want to go. I know in my head I need it, but really, I do not want to talk about everything and deal with very painful things. It's easier to pretend it didn't happen. Also, I'm having a hard time being around my family. Every time we're together, it's like breaking a healing bone. It's just a reminder that things are not the same and they will never be the same. I don't want to accept this as a new normal. I hate it.I'm not suicidal, just exhausted and grieving. Any words of wisdom would be greatly appreciated. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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