Members Alisha allen Posted April 14, 2022 Members Report Share Posted April 14, 2022 I lost my mother January 20, 2022 I’m only 17 the only child and I don’t have a father i really don’t know to continue to live like this I just feel so empty I even tried to commit a couple of times I just wish she was back it hurts to wake up and not hear from her every morning I’m traumatized from when the ems rushed into the house and took her till I heard her heart stop beating everything happened so fast in so little time we were so happy before Christmas Eve I got of covid and I just wanted to spend time with her but it didn’t go so well I spent Christmas worrying about my mother in the hospital I didn’t even open my presents till the next year I traveled to places to clear my mind but I couldn’t get over the fact that the only person I could talk to is getting took away from me she was the only person I can run to when I was in pain she was my home it was always me and her against the world I really never got along with my family so I just stuck to my mother but it’s hard now I’m slowly starting to collapse and just give up I really wanted her to watch me graduate just like how she did I wanted her to see me go to prom I wanted to spend Christmas with her my life has came crashing down and I can’t pick myself up it’s just more weight on my chest cuz I don’t even like grieving around family I hide it I’m like the black sheep I don’t feel wanted and the person that made me feel wanted is gone I just really want her back or to just hold her hear her voice one last time we were so happy we even planned to move in a new house I’ve fallen into a dark path my grades have dropped I don’t eat anymore don’t even bother to wash my face in the morning I just stay curled up under my mothers favorite blanket all day I can’t even look in the mirror without seeing her face I look just like her 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Traz Posted April 15, 2022 Members Report Share Posted April 15, 2022 Hi Alisha, My heart goes out to you about your beloved Mom. You are so young to lose her and everything must feel so frightening right now. You said you are 17, are you living on your own or being supported by anyone? Do you have any other extended family you could talk to about your loss? I know you said you weren't that close with your family but would you consider reaching out to any of them? You might be surprised. I can't imagine carrying this heavy burden all by myself, especially at such a young age. There are many people on this site who are only children and lost parents at a young age. You are not alone. Take everything one day at a time. I know everyone says that but that's how I coped. Thinking of you and sending you strength. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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