My sweet angel watching over me

[unmukt]

Hi, yesterday was a very tough day for me since it was my birthday and the most excited person for my birthday has always been my love, Mahesh. I had been crying for a week in anticipation of my birthday and yesterday my grief knew no bounds. I felt empty from inside since this is the first time I didn't hear from my love on my birthday. He would make videos, write sweet quotes or arrange little cosy corners for me where we would sit below fairy lights and eat sweet corn , just the way i loved or he would just take me by the side of a lake and we would read or paint together. I had been crying the entire day this whole week and hence i joined this group too.. 

Today I feel grateful for all of you being here for me in the toughest of the days. One beautiful moment I would love to share is that, i was meditating today and i felt he talked to me. I felt him saying that he is always right next to me and he waits for me in the other end. He said he wants to be my strength and hope never the reason I feel weak. I understood him and since then I am feeling a bit better throughout the day. I have also signed his name with mine today in advice of a friend I met here, that strengthened me too . But i know I shall be crying my eyes out again soon but that's okay since I know it's all for love and it always will be. Prayers for everyone and lots of love today .

[KayC]

What a beautiful picture of the two of you!  And so obvious is your love.

I cried myself to sleep my first birthday without George.  It was such a stark contrast to the birthdays with him here...he always made a big deal of it, and he wasn't here to do that.  Not one person remembered my bdy, no one called, no one did anything, nothing.  I've had them come and go since, I have learned not to expect anything.  But it was so hard that first time especially...it was a huge trigger/reminder of his absence.

I'm so sorry it was so hard for you.

[unmukt]

6 minutes ago, KayC said:

What a beautiful picture of the two of you!  And so obvious is your love.

I cried myself to sleep my first birthday without George.  It was such a stark contrast to the birthdays with him here...he always made a big deal of it, and he wasn't here to do that.  Not one person remembered my bdy, no one called, no one did anything, nothing.  I've had them come and go since, I have learned not to expect anything.  But it was so hard that first time especially...it was a huge trigger/reminder of his absence.

I'm so sorry it was so hard for you.

Thank you ❤️ and i know right, there's no one who wished me either apart from two of our closest common friends. I have lost my little family of him and me; and my cheerleader that he was, in every sphere of life. I just remembered little moments where he would celebrate me immensely.  But today, somehow he made me feel graceful even in so much grief . I feel the strength of his love and I felt I am able to breathe atleast and I hope I remember it on my worse days.

[KayC]

I'm so sorry, I don't understand people, this is a time when you NEED the caring!

1 minute ago, Gagarina Nath said:

I feel the strength of his love and I felt I am able to breathe atleast and I hope I remember it on my worse days.

 Me too.  Memories and faith in the love we continue to share still get me through after all these years.

[RN-Nix]

Sooooo beautiful!!!!! He is with you always. Let the tears flow when they come. Wishing you blessings and peace for your new year!!!!

[Canadagirl81]

Happy belated birthday Pisces sister. What a gorgeous photo of you. I’m sending you hugs. I hope something made you smile today.