Divorce and sale of family home.

[Shantelly]

Hi guys. I got married young 23. My divorce was served to me by his mother at our home 2 days after finding about his affair with a young lady (23) (he was 39) that he hired a year prior. I told him ill sign right now and I did. He had planned it all, cleared the bank accounts, had a lawyer for months (his buddy's divorce lawyer) I was blind sighted. I was that little girl that played with dolls, played house, just wanted to be a mom. He filed a temporary emergency custody order against me, that the judge threw out. I started to lose my mind. Life with out my kids everyday, I didnt know how to deal. This trauma is real. I pray for woman that have gone through this gut ranching sadness and pain.  Im just skimming through the details (we all know how much deeper it can go) So 8 moths later it was time to sell our family home. The one thing I tried so hard to fight for for the kids. The one thing that gave me peace was having a home for the kids. I am depressed. I didnt not think that age 38 after 11yrs marriage two kids 2 homes that this is where I would be. Ive struggle with my alcohol addiction since, Ive been to a handful of treatment. Before the divorce i was sober 7 years. I am 1yr sober today. Searching for any happiness that was. How do I find new happiness? I feel alone, unhappy, grateful, sad, sad, more sad. Im new to this forum, my friend who works in hospice told me about it.