Letters to My Mom - 2

[MKaye]

Mom,

I've spent my day contemplating the anger side of grief. My patience has been incredibly thin lately. With work, home, and everything. I know you'd tell me that it's fine to be angry but I don't even know what I'm angry about.

Maybe I think it's unfair that I only got limited time with you. I was 6 when you took me in, adopted me as your own, and I didn't even get 30 years with you. Maybe I'm angry at myself for not spending more time with you, for not answering every call, or for the times I got upset with you.

Today has been extra hard. I barely slept last night, I spent the night restless. I tried reading some of the book Aunt B gave me, Motherless Daughters. But, I think it's too soon. I'll read it soon, Ma, I promise. Maybe it'll help. 

I miss you, I love you. 

[reader]

Our thought are with you MKaye.