Loss of Mom

[ektk]

I just recently lost my mom and I am heartbroken. She fought cancer for over 10 years and dealt with a lot of chronic pain and medical issues. I'm not even really sure what she passed away from as her cancer was fairly stable but she had started getting multiple infections and a possible autoimmune disorder the doctors couldn't figure out.

I am heartbroken for her that she couldn't get the answers medically that would have been needed to save her and I feel like she was cheated out of so much life being that she was only in her early sixties when she passed and had suffered from an illness since in her early fifties. I struggle with knowing where she is and if she is content with where she's at. It's hard to think I'll never be able to see her or talk to her again. I hope there is an amazing afterlife where we will eventually be reunited and all the sorrow and grief I feel will be washed away. She was so amazing and sweet, caring, selfless and non-judgmental....I feel like there will always be a void in my life and it will never feel complete again. How do you handle that feeling every day?

[BEQUET93]

Please accept my condolences. The first weeks are the truly the toughest. I think back to November and December and wonder how I made it through. Yesterday marked four months, since my own mother's passing, and there are still moments of unreality. The amazing thing about being human is that, given time, we can adapt to difficult situations. We can incorporate the losses of loved ones into our lives and move forward. We will always miss them and there will be hours of  sadness, but that's okay. I think of my mother talking about how much she missed her grandparents and wished she could visit them, forty years after their deaths. For her, the loss of her grandparents was profound, but she was able to come to terms with it and accept that missing the deceased is a fact of life. That's the state I am trying to reach, for myself. 

I wish you the best. Your mother is and always will be in your heart.

[ektk]

Thank you so much for you comforting words. I remember after my grandma passed away, my mom vented to me that life would never be the same and I couldn't totally relate until now. 

Agreed, it is amazing what we learn to adapt to and I'm sure it will just take time and patience. And so true that she is and will always be in my heart and I will never forget her.