it's been about 8 month now and everything is just the same..

[ATA]

8 months..
counting day by day..
pushing days to pass..

still the pain is fresh and inextinguishable
people don't understand.. no one can understand
I'm dying every single second

I do miss my dad, so bad. 

[reader]

Dear ATA,

I hear you, my friend. Losing a beloved father is the most painful and raw experience of one's life. 

Please remember you are doing the best you can every day.  And you are among friends and we are standing with you. I know it feels horribly lonely but we are here.

Thinking of you. (((hugs)))

[Choli]

Dear ATA,

Although it is only been 32 days since I’ve lost my mom; I have had to reason with the fact that this is something that I will never get over. Talking with different people who have lost their parents or individuals close to them, they say the first year is the hardest. Especially with the holidays and the birthdays.

Unfortunately this won’t be an easy task for anyone of us. I keep trying to look at the positive. I try to find some signs. I have tried reading the Bible, but I know I’m not there yet.

Sending lots of love your way.

[dena bickham]

I understand well.  I feel your pain and am going thru exactly the same thing.  It's a horrible place to be. It's been a year since my Mom passed and 2 months since my Dad died.  We were extremely close and it's been hard to even maintain my daily routines.  I cry all the time; everyday.  I think I should be getting a little bit better but it doesn't happen.  I think it may be getting worse.  I hurt so bad so deep inside.  I feel so alone and so hopeless.  I'm dreading the holidays.  The time of the year I always looked forward to, I now dread.  I hope it helps knowing you're not alone.  Praying for us to get some healing and comfort

[Jacx]

Dena I felt the same about my Birthday.m I’ve always em been a HUGE fan of birthdays, and for me the whole month of October was the most magical time of year.
This year I loathed it. I didn’t make any plans (I couldnt...cause Covid) and hated that the two people who made me would be gone.
I won’t lie, the day was stressful, but once it was over I found some gratitude in the messages I got and the love expressed to me. Sure I’m bitter about the family that didn’t bother to say anything (same family that I had hoped I could grieve with) but overall I found something that, just for a brief moment, made me feel connected to others.

I hope you can find that for your special season too.

[dena bickham]

Thanx Jacx. I'm hoping to do something fun with some friends and hopefully start new traditions.  Take care and write again

 

[dena bickham]

Dear ATA, I do understand what you're going thru cause I'm going thru the same thing.   I miss my Dad so bad.  I hurt so deeply.  Things will never be the same without him .  He was the best Dad ever.  We were extremely close.  I don't have the perfect words to tell you to make your hurt go away but just know one thing for sure----one day we will be with our loved ones again.  I believe that with all my heart and soul and that's the only thing that keeps me going. Until then, also know that our deceased loved ones would never want us to feel like this.  They would want us to go on and live a happy life. They may be gone but they'll always be watching over us.