Members dizzydancingway Posted July 3, 2011 Members Report Share Posted July 3, 2011 This might be a weird topic to start in this forum, but I wanted to share my experience with my first massage. My mom died a couple of months ago and, since then (along with the grief) I have had terrible stress and anxiety. A lot of these feelings stem from my being the only female left in my direct family--I feel pressured, both by myself and by my dad and brother, to take care of everyone and everything. I'm going to grief therapy. I've been reading lots of books on death and losing a mother and I've even started taking medication for anxiety/depression. But still, I can't shake the stress. What I've started noticing in the past few months is how much my mom's death has affected me physically. Constant back/shoulder pain. Headaches. I wake up with jaw pain from grinding my teeth. All since her death.Well, a couple days ago I booked a massage for the first time in my life. I've had enough of all the stress and tension and wanted to see if a massage would help. The masseuse filled the room with beautiful herbal scents. I explained to her that I'd been experiencing lots of tension since my mom passed away. As she was massaging me, I felt so much of my stress float away. She found knots in my neck shoulders...she found one spot where, I...I swear, as she was working them out, I thought to myself, "this is where I've kept all the stress and pain of Mom's death. This is where its all gone." An hour later, I felt like a new woman. I felt refreshed and healthy for the first time since my mom was diagnosed with cancer.Anyway, I know this might be a little odd of a topic, but I wanted to share my experience. We focus a lot on taking care of ourselves emotionally..talking out the grief, allowing ourselves to cry, etc. I'm starting to realize how connected my physical well-being is to my emotional, and that its just as important to take care of our bodies as it is to focus on the grief. I know massages aren't cheap but there are other things that I've started to do to take care of myself...going to the park on my lunch breaks and lying on the grass, taking a long bath.My body has been pretty beat up since my mom died. Lack of sleep, inadequate appetite, almost no exercise, and weeks and weeks of tension built into my muscles. I'm adding all this to my long list of ways I need to take care of myself. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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