Members charbarr Posted December 18, 2007 Members Report Share Posted December 18, 2007 I fear that my father will be taken within the next few days -- we put him on hospice care last week and he just seems to be going faster than I expected. He was diagnosed with stage 3 lung cancer last October and treatment went well, this October they found a mass in his brain and removed it. Unfortunately the radiation didn't do enough, and he is just too weak. He lives 3 hours away, and I am trying to help out as much as I can. I haven't seen him since last week when he was up and moving, now he hasn't gotten out of bed in 3 days, has fluid in his lungs, is disorientated and has a catheter. I am afraid and at the same time, hope that I am just paranoid.My sistuation is devistating and I just don't know how much more I can handle without losing it. I am 31, married 1 1/2years, and no children. My mother died 4 years ago from Ovarian Cancer, and she was my everything. My sister died in March from Breast Cancer. She left behind a mentally handicapped son, 30, who my father was the care giver. I am from a huge family, but we just cant get it together. I am thinking about becoming the caregiver for my nephew, but it would be a complete life style change.I have so much on my mind, and so much anxiety, it is driving me insane. My husband is very supportive, but he just doesn't get why I cry, or get mad, or get tired, or want to be alone. He lost his father 10 years ago, but he has accepted it better than I have.Anyway, I am sorry to just go on. I need a place to vent because I seriously think I am making myself physically sick with all my worry and concern.I wish anyone dealing with any loss, a glimmer of relief and a sigh of joy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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