Fathers Day... without you.

[John/Wendy]

So, it’s been 7 months without you. I promised you I would look out for our family. Mother’s Day was hard, but now a Fathers Day without you. How do I keep up this “ I’m ok” act with our kids? They see through me. I’m failing miserably. I cry less. I’m not sure weather that’s good or bad. I’ve been trying to digitize all of our photos and videos for the kids. Memories that flood my heart with smiles and anxiety. Sleep is still hard to come by. Just not knowing where you are, or if your ok, haunts me every second of every day. I’m one who believes in an after life. I just wish I knew you were ok. Prayer is all I have. Faith, is a struggling point for me. I’ll keep talking with you on my walks in the park and every night before I pray. I just hope you find a way to be happy where ever you are. I love you and thank you for the life you gave me. You helped make me a Father and I will try to continue your legacy of love with our children. Please hold my hand a little tighter tomorrow morning on my morning walk. I love you “Bunches”. Me.

[Billie Rae]

My heart is with all today,that was very touching,hold tight to those girls.
Keep talking to her,she hears you,I'm not religious but spiritual and know that the spirit lives on so I know they hear us and they grieve our pain.
I've been in some kind of fog the last 3 weeks,lost all feeling of time.
Love to you
Billie

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[KayC]

John/Wendy,

I'm sorry lthis day is so hard...I am glad you have faith, I know it's a struggle in early grief.  I'd always been an avid pray-er but found it hard that first year after losing George...it was on Father's Day 14 years ago that he died, although that year it fell on the 19th instead of the 16th...I feel I get a double whammy with anv. of death being the 19th and also today.

Our thoughts are with you today.  I wish all of our guys a Happy Father's Day, but I know how tongue in cheek that is when you're missing the one person that would make it truly happy.  Sending you thoughts for comfort and peace.

[Martha D]

22 hours ago, KayC said:

John/Wendy,

I'm sorry lhis day is so hard...I am glad you have faith, I know it's a struggle in early grief.  I'd always been an avid pray-er but found it hard that first year after losing George...it was on Father's Day 14 years ago that he died, although that year it fell on the 19th instead of the 16th...I feel I get a double whammy with anv. of death being the 19th and also today.

Our thoughts are with you today.  I wish all of our guys a Happy Father's Day, but I know how tongue in cheek that is when you're missing the one person that would make it truly happy.  Sending you thoughts for comfort and peace.