Members Nely Posted March 31, 2019 Members Report Posted March 31, 2019 It will be one year by next month since my sweetheart passed. How i have felt all these month is so overwhelming even to put down. I started a thread last week on 'Acute stress' thats just little of how I am faring. The issue now is, I love my husband so much that I will do anything to honour him. I am just so young and naive, pardon me please, that I do not know what to do for him. My love for him never ended with the incidence and it will never. I have felt raw grief every other day, thats an entirely new chapter. To all of you that have become family over time, please help me....what do I do. Its less than a month to the first anniversary. Thank you all...
Members Billie Rae Posted March 31, 2019 Members Report Posted March 31, 2019 It will be one year by next month since my sweetheart passed. How i have felt all these month is so overwhelming even to put down. I started a thread last week on 'Acute stress' thats just little of how I am faring. The issue now is, I love my husband so much that I will do anything to honour him. I am just so young and naive, pardon me please, that I do not know what to do for him. My love for him never ended with the incidence and it will never. I have felt raw grief every other day, thats an entirely new chapter. To all of you that have become family over time, please help me....what do I do. Its less than a month to the first anniversary. Thank you all... Sweetheart,I can't tell you what to do,only make suggestions,do what your heart tells you.Maybe do something that you both enjoyed but I do know that you should care for yourself,rest,eat well and have a good stress reliving cry every so often.If you have someone you trust close tell them what you need.Above all know we are thinking of you with love.BillieSent from my LG-TP260 using Grieving.com mobile app
Members Nely Posted March 31, 2019 Author Members Report Posted March 31, 2019 @Billie Rae, Thank you so much for your kind words. I may go to the park where we started our love journey. He was a Catholic, a very good one, I shall book mass for him. Right now, with the unexplainable fatigue I feel, I cant help but wonder if its because the one year is drawing closer by the day. Thank you for being there. I wish you strength and peace on this journey.
Members JES Posted March 31, 2019 Members Report Posted March 31, 2019 @Nely A mass sounds very nice, my Kevin a Catholic too. Think its a nice way to honor him and the park where your love journey began. I think it will be an especially hard day for you. Im at 6 months since loss of my love and the time preceding sometimes worse than the day itself as I wear myself out worrying, knowing its coming. I honestly can say I never thought this grieving process would go on so long, so I can imagine at your 1 yr. point, I probably will be feeling alot like you do. Sorry you are hurting so bad my dear, wish all of our pain would just go away. Sending love.
Members Nely Posted March 31, 2019 Author Members Report Posted March 31, 2019 @JES, Thank you for reaching out to me. I can not say how that day will turn out for me.... feeling this broken and raw as I am now...I don't know if it's a tip of the iceberg. It's almost a year but feels like yesterday. Our lives play on my mind daily. From when we met, courted and got married. It's like a series. So it's been intense, there are period of climax which brings raw grief. Jes, I am sorry about what you are going through. Haven come this far, almost at one year, it's sad I neither have the strength nor the right words to ease your pain. Despite your pain you still find time for me and others here. I am grateful. Wish you strength and peace dear
Members JES Posted March 31, 2019 Members Report Posted March 31, 2019 @Nely Thankyou so much. I find Iately I am also thinking more of how we met, dated, etc. Before that I could only picture him sick, and when he was dying, just engraved in my mind. I hope this means a step forward for us both. It sure is a tough journey....I never couldve imagined. I find this forum to be my daily lifeline, (even just reading it some days). I too, have no energy, and I was a very energetic person before. I try to hope the future will get better for all of us. Thinking of you and sending love.
Members Billie Rae Posted March 31, 2019 Members Report Posted March 31, 2019 [mention=410888]Nely[/mention] Thankyou so much. I find Iately I am also thinking more of how we met, dated, etc. Before that I could only picture him sick, and when he was dying, just engraved in my mind. I hope this means a step forward for us both. It sure is a tough journey....I never couldve imagined. I find this forum to be my daily lifeline, (even just reading it some days). I too, have no energy, and I was a very energetic person before. I try to hope the future will get better for all of us. Thinking of you and sending love.At this two and a half months I still can only see Charlie sick and suffering I hate to say it makes me think his death was best,but only for him.Him getting better would have been my preferred outcome but he was in such agony and was confused from not eating and pain meds that it made him cry and being so helpless really made him so angry that he would beg to die while I was begging for him to live.I hope one day I can remember my big strong carpenter guy.the day I met him(his 56 birthday)I thought he was so handsome,I want to remember that guy.Love youBillieSent from my LG-TP260 using Grieving.com mobile app
Members JES Posted April 1, 2019 Members Report Posted April 1, 2019 @Billie Rae I really hope the better images come back to you also in time. Not that I don’t still have the bad ones too, but until now, hard to even see any good ones. So I feel a little step forward. Now, if I could just start having the good dreams. Your Charlie was handsome. I so wish my phone or his iPad would let me post a picture but IPad says photo too big and phone won’t allow either. I just can’t figure it out. I love to see all the photos of everybody. Love you Jeanne
Moderators KayC Posted April 1, 2019 Moderators Report Posted April 1, 2019 It's very individual how we handle it...it helps to have a plan but sometimes we get right up to the day and chuck the plan.https://www.griefhealingblog.com/2014/06/in-grief-dreading-anniversary-date-of.htmlhttps://www.griefhealingblog.com/2012/05/coping-with-anniversary-reactions-in.html
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