Members Eric 086 Posted March 21, 2019 Members Report Posted March 21, 2019 My Mom died just over a year ago, it was sudden and unexpected. Her Dr increased her medication and she most likely forgot, and accidentally took 5x too much. That's what we think anyway. She was 50 years old and happy and healthy. When I heard the news, about an hour after it happened, I took it very hard. Extremely hard. My Mom and I we're always close and I looked up to her in a lot of ways, she was a really great person. Over time I started healing emotionally, but I feel like I'm changed. Things that should make me exceedingly happy, feel hollow. It's hard to smile still, and when I do I feel bad about it, and it doesn't feel natural. I never laugh. I feel numb to a lot things still. I feel alone a lot. And I feel like I lost a big part of my life. I miss my Mom every day. I feel like I've normalized into a feeling of general sadness. I'm wondering if anyone here has felt this way before and if it ever goes away. Thanks
Members tessa Posted March 21, 2019 Members Report Posted March 21, 2019 Hi Eric, I lost my mum 1.5 years ago and I feel the same as you. I go about each day doing whatever but it's hollow inside. But what I've noticed is it is getting better, very slowly but it is getting better. Hang in there, keep busy. You're still young, new people will come into your life. They won't replace your mom but they will help fill in the hole. It just takes time.
Members reader Posted March 23, 2019 Members Report Posted March 23, 2019 Dear Eric, Please know that everything you are feeling and thinking is natural and normal part of grief. It is so hard to lose a beloved parent. A year is still very early. Its been two years for me and I still feel very odd about being here on Earth without my father. Its hard to wrap my head around. I hope you have some trusted friends or family members to talk to and who have been kind and supportive. Don't be afraid to reach out and maybe consider talking to a grief counsellor or joining a support group in the community or church. These websites have good articles that help with understanding your feelings. What's Your Grief Grief in Common Grief Healing Blog Take care of yourself and know we are all with you.
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