Very disturbing dreams involving my departed mother...please help!

[Pui]

 

 I have suffered a terrible loss – my mother passed away just a year ago. We were extremely close, and it’s been very difficult for me to go on.
Some time before she passed we were talking about spiritual matters, and she told me that if it is possible and if she is able, she will return and give me a sign/let me know the afterlife exists and she is watching over me.
But a year has passed and…no clear sign arrived.
I had three extremely weird dreams though.
The first came just a few months after her passing. I don’t remember the exact circumstances, only that she said “I don’t like it here at all, come and take me home!”
The second was exactly one year after her passing. I dreamt I was trying to reach her, but she was in a sort of cellar or underground place, very narrow and with low ceiling; a voice told me she had to stay there because she had to “carry all those sacks” . There were no sacks to be seen.
The third dream came just a few days ago. I was in our home, in the living room and saw her by the door; she took the form of a black two-dimensional shadow/silhouette, with her back bent and unmoving. I tried to go towards her, but an extraordinary weight was pressing me into the couch so I could not move.
I am extremely disturbed by these “dreams”.
I am not sure whether they are real communications, or just my mind playing tricks because of the depression I’m fighting with.
If they are real, does she need help? What can I do? How can I “go and take her home’?
Please, if anyone has any suggestions, help me! I am getting desperate! She was my whole life!

[Nanimonai]

While I feel I am less spiritually inclined than you are, I would still like to leave you some thoughts and ideas that I pondered over, after reading your post.

Some years ago I started to write down my dreams when I wanted to move on from certain dreams, nightmares mostly. While I can't give you the guarantee that it will help I am convinced it will at the least give you a possibility of improving your situation. Furthermore I believe that the best way to give your mother the peace she desires is to give yourself the peace.

Here comes the point where I feel a bit uncertain, due to being less spiritually inclined than you appear to me, but I feel that trying to write down your dreams and maybe getting them to progress in some manner will help your mental state out and should have some effect on your mother too, considering how close you two are.

I can personally tell you that my writing down dreams I wanted to set free from my mind did for the most part indeed never occur again after writing them down, or in some cases progress into another type of dream. I should describe this a bit better, I imagine, to make clear what I mean. In the past I had a couple of dreams that were either reoccurring in some cases, or had a very similar feel to them and writing those down led to some of those transforming in a manner that I have trouble putting into words. let's use that feel I perceived from them. The dream's content changed, but it's ... essence ... felt similar, as if it was a continuation of the previous one. It would be my most sincere hope that the idea I am giving you here might just do the same good to you as it did to me.

... and it doesn't have to be writing only, maybe you are more artistically inclined than I am and you will achieve more success with this by adding drawings to the writing, to free the dream not only by the written word, but through it's visual elements as well.

 

Whatever expression you will seek out in the end, my thoughts and well wishes are with you. (pardon if this sentence feels a bit rough, I'm not a native speaker.)

[Pui]

Thank you very much, your answer has been like a balm for my grieving heart!

I will try to do what you suggested; let's hope this will help...