Lost a boyfriend

[Ms Authority]

I met him on facebook and we took time to know each other before we shared telephone numbers. Once we did, about 6 month later, we planned to meet. We even fell in love over telephone before meeting an Oh i loved him dearly. He was a very focused man and knew what he wanted. he understood that i couldn't be with him fully because of the my other partner( who i believe i would've left if i didn't have kids with .

 

One day he asked me to marry him and i said yes, he said hed wait for our time because he knows its coming and that he can see that i love him. I did love him. I was scared to leave the other guy and lose my kids since his family promised me that i will never see them again if i leave. So he waited but we continued seeing each other. Then one morning i received  an sms from his friend telling me that he was hit by a car and died the following day in hospital. I still cant believe it because i believed this was it. I would've married him on a death bed if i had a last chance to see him

 

Im am so sad. i keep on thinking about all the plans we made, the promises he made to me  but never got around to do them. Im not sleeping properly.. i live in regret of not taking a chance wit him. I know he loved me with all his heart and i loved him too. i just couldnt pack up and go. I find myself negotiating With God everyday to have him back. I want my forever with him. I dont know what to do to accept that he is gone. I feel like i was robbed , like we were robbed of our forever.i need to accept but its hard.

 

God knows we loved each other

[KayC]

8 hours ago, Ms Authority said:

I met him on facebook and we took time to know each other before we shared telephone numbers. Once we did, about 6 month later, we planned to meet. We even fell in love over telephone before meeting an Oh i loved him dearly. He was a very focused man and knew what he wanted. he understood that i couldn't be with him fully because of the my other partner( who i believe i would've left if i didn't have kids with .

 

One day he asked me to marry him and i said yes, he said hed wait for our time because he knows its coming and that he can see that i love him. I did love him. I was scared to leave the other guy and lose my kids since his family promised me that i will never see them again if i leave. So he waited but we continued seeing each other. Then one morning i received  an sms from his friend telling me that he was hit by a car and died the following day in hospital. I still cant believe it because i believed this was it. I would've married him on a death bed if i had a last chance to see him

 

Im am so sad. i keep on thinking about all the plans we made, the promises he made to me  but never got around to do them. Im not sleeping properly.. i live in regret of not taking a chance wit him. I know he loved me with all his heart and i loved him too. i just couldnt pack up and go. I find myself negotiating With God everyday to have him back. I want my forever with him. I dont know what to do to accept that he is gone. I feel like i was robbed , like we were robbed of our forever.i need to accept but its hard.

 

God knows we loved each other

I am so sorry for the loss of your Love.  I've seen people in this situation before, it's very hard because it's disenfranchised grief, often not recognized because it's not out in the open and often you feel you can't talk about it with people.  Do you have a sister or trusted friend you can talk to?  You can always come here.

I understand your concerns about losing your kids, but I hope you will see a lawyer to find out your options.  Often the other person manipulates us with our greatest fear, I went through that with my kids' dad when we divorced after 23 years.  

I wish for you some peace and comfort and want you to know that we care and are here to listen whenever you need somebody to talk to.

[Ms Authority]

I have been speaking to someone. Whether i leave now or not. I will never have the opportunity to spend time with my boyfriend because hes not coming back. I beat myself everyday. I just want my opportunity with him.

[KayC]

I know, I get that.  I know it feels very unfair.  I'm glad you have someone you can talk to and I hope you can honor him by making the best decisions for yourself and getting your life into a healthier place for you.  I hope you can feel him looking out for you.

[Pmarie]

I have been speaking to someone. Whether i leave now or not. I will never have the opportunity to spend time with my boyfriend because hes not coming back. I beat myself everyday. I just want my opportunity with him.

I know how you feel and believe it’s how many of us feel who have lost a romantic partner. That is, not only have we lost the beloved, we have also lost the future we envisioned with them. Which translates that the rest of our lives will not be as we had thought. I feel the same way. It’s a brutal feeling. All the dreams, just gone. Actually, though, we never know what the future may have brought. Life is so very unpredictable. I know how you feel. It doesn’t seem fair. My condolences to you.

[Anthony123]

Iv recently lost my girlfriend. I have an idea of how you feel..sending my love 

Ant x

[Billie Rae]

Its not only the person you lost but hopes,dreams and the future could have beens.we all here get that.to honor yourself if you are in a bad relationship you need to explore your way out,It will not help you in your grief.I know this from hanging on to a bad relationship for way to long.one day you will turn around and your 60.Don't leave yourself with regret.my heart to you

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