My mother was brutally murdered night of April 25th

[Saddenedforever]

Im so angry I feel I’ll never find joy again. Has anyone been through this? I’m lost.

 

[KateC34]

I just joined this site. I am grieving the loss of my mother. I lost her in March. I can not understand your specific circumstances in which she die but i wanted to say that i am sorry.

 I find it so much harder to find joy. I still put myself in situations i used to enjoy. I took myself to a concert. I did not enjoy it the way i normally would... but it gave me some sense that i was remaining who i am despite my pain. 

[reader]

Dear saddenforever,

My deepest sympathies and condolences. I'm so sorry to hear of this tragic news. I know its unfathomable that something like this could have happened.

Please know we are all with you. Thinking of you. Sending you love and hugs.

If you want to maybe consider talking to a grief counsellor or joining a support group in the community. Lean on friends and family.

Just know that everything you are feeling and thinking is normal and natural.

(((hugs)))

[Missingmymom17]

Dear Saddenedforever, 

I am grieving loss of mother as well. Its been 5 months. It is very hard, no lie and at times I feel worse before better. It is normal and take all the time you need and then some more to grieve mother.  It may not seem like it now but it will get better. I was saddened to read your post and I pray they bring her murderer to justice and he/she never see the light of day again!!! And I mean it.

[Nicole-my grief journey]

So much love to you. I am truly saddened you are experiencing this trauma. Obviously, I cannot truly know how your personal grief feels. I’m sure it is all consuming though, as I’ve been on this road with my family. I can only tell you that I’ve had several losses and the biggest two being both of my brothers. It takes time to grieve and getting counseling is really the best way to help yourself. I’ve done it. It’s not an immediate, check the box fix, but it will definitely help if you can find the time and resources to do it. Start with writing out one feeling a day, one sentence and then rip it up and release the thought while doing that. You will move forward and transform and survive this bone deep pain. I thought that I wouldn’t and I have days I really struggle, but I’ve survived it all when I thought it was impossible. Now when I look at the sky, or see something my sibling would love or have laughed at it warms my heart even though it hurts at the same time. It takes just waking up everyday, putting your feet on the floor and going hour by hour. Be gentle with yourself and reach out to others and share. We’re here for you and we care.

Love and light,

Nicole