Members mandy8 Posted January 19, 2010 Members Report Share Posted January 19, 2010 Well I got a divorce the end of July 2009. It took me several years to come to that decision mostly due to the fact we have a child together. I went to counseling, read books, worked out, got braces, got a breast augmentation and anything else I could think of just to get approval and affection from my ex. Despite the fact that many close friends knew how unhappy I was not to mention the incredible toll it took on my self esteem, I had so many friends turn their back on me and completely betray my trust. I've basically been considered an adulteress and I've even had people to practically accuse me of choosing other things over my child. I started seeing someone about 4 months ago and he is very sweet. I know he loves me no matter what I look like, actually he prefers me not to pile on the make up, lol. But I still am having a very hard time dealing with the insecurities and trying to redeem myself at my office for the time I missed and errors I made going through the stress of this whole situation. I've been better at holding my head up on decisions I've made, but secretly inside I'm screaming at the fact I can't be with my child everyday, it kills me to know that she doesn't have her mommy everyday and I feel that I've failed her. I've not missed my ex once since the divorce, you wouldn't even believe the things he's done since the divorce, but it still hurts that our family couldn't work, and so many people would think I would just walk away. Sometimes the outside image isn't what is really going on, so when divorce happens people are quick to judge. I've learned not to judge others, I've worn a lot of shoes in the last few months that I never that I would have to walk a mile in. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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