Members LynneMB Posted October 23, 2021 Members Report Share Posted October 23, 2021 I lost my son to cancer 10yrs ago, he was 6yrs old. Before and during his illness his father and I were not in a good place so didn't offer support to each other I felt I was alone in all decision making. He was a source of pain for me. 18months on from diagnosis my beautiful boy passed away. I didn't take the time to grieve. I actually didn't know how. I was just so sad but buried it by looking after my daughter and everyone e else. I went through the guilt phase and anger then nothing. Again, my relationship with his dad took over. He was a lost soul and all sorts of trouble. We ended up separated a cpl of years after our sons passing. We went through a very bad break up. During that time I was so determined to live life in honour of my son, ensuring my daughter had good memories etc. It was just me and her against the world. But, I never acknowledged grief. I still don't but I have phases where the sadness and need for him to be with me is overwhelming. I get sick and depressed. This is happening more and more just lately and I'm a little scared of how it is affecting my life and my relationship with others. I am still a single mum. My daughter is a preteen and to be honest, I feel like all my strength has got lost. I used to be able to deal with anything but over the past year or so, I have become so weak and tired. I don't know why this is happening and I want to get my strength back to have a happier life and show my daughter how to be happy. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members reader Posted November 23, 2021 Members Report Share Posted November 23, 2021 Dear LynneMB, I'm so sorry for everything you had to deal with. I think we all do the best we can in the moment. Please don't be hard on yourself. I hope you'll decide to talk to a grief counsellor or join a support group. There are many good resources in the community but sometimes it's hard to know where to look. I hope these websites will provide some direction. Grief in Common - online support Grief Share Grief Healing Blog Grief Recovery Method What's Your Grief We are here with you. (((hugs))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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