losing my mom

[esmartin28]

august 1 is my moms birthday. august 1 of 2018 i sat in the hospital with my mom alone watching her leave me. i never left i stayed by her side the whole time. My brother, aunt, uncle, and grandpa got there at 9am and left around 3pm knowing she was gonna make it.  i watch them all walk out and leave.  i was up all night with my mom.  At 5:27 am August 2 2018 she took her last breathe. Worse day of my life. and i didnt have my mom anymore i didnt care about much. i started using drugs, i sold drugs, i push away my true friends i quit my jobs, i got into alot of trouble. now im at a treatment center and i been sober for a lil over 4 months. im learning how to live life sober and coping with my moms death.

[Kristal]

On 7/8/2021 at 10:43 AM, esmartin28 said:

august 1 is my moms birthday. august 1 of 2018 i sat in the hospital with my mom alone watching her leave me. i never left i stayed by her side the whole time. My brother, aunt, uncle, and grandpa got there at 9am and left around 3pm knowing she was gonna make it.  i watch them all walk out and leave.  i was up all night with my mom.  At 5:27 am August 2 2018 she took her last breathe. Worse day of my life. and i didnt have my mom anymore i didnt care about much. i started using drugs, i sold drugs, i push away my true friends i quit my jobs, i got into alot of trouble. now im at a treatment center and i been sober for a lil over 4 months. im learning how to live life sober and coping with my moms death.

Oh i'm so sorry for your loss! I lost my momma last year and if i wasn't in recovery I would have lost everything. I'm so happy to hear your in treatment and in recovery. I wish i could say it gets better but the pain is still there,very raw. I just have learned how to cope,i suppose.