Losing a grandfather.

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I lost my precious grandpa just over two months ago, he took me in when my parents divorced, he raised me and was a father figure to me. He had been suffering with Alzheimer’s for around 6 years, and was very unwell towards the end of his life. I have repressed all of my feelings up until now, I took time from work, one week, in order to spend time with my family and to grieve, since going back to work, I have been busy 24/7, I haven’t spent any time alone in the last 2 months, because I am so terrified of being alone and dealing with my thoughts. I have started spending more time alone, and I have found that I am finally having to confront these emotions. I have never had to deal with the loss of a loved one, I can’t see how this will ever get easier, I feel a little lost, I was so lucky to have such a kind, caring person in my life.