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its been 3 years since I lost my 17 year old to suicide more just kept following


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I lost my 17 year old son to suicide a month prior my uncle and after my son my other uncle all died young and without much warning. I forgot to mention My fiance decided he didnt want anything to do with me anymore and left me to grief alone as I am a single parent. He then tried to come back a year later and verbally and emotionally abused me for 5 months after. I was such a wreck when he came back that I didnt know right from wrong anymore andi had no self esteem. After my second uncle died my beloved grandma whom I looked up to who was the rock in our family went on Christmas Eve. Then the following February I was woken from bed with alarming news that my x fiances son whom was to be my futurestep son was brutally stabbed and in a coma age 17 as well. Thank God he is alive and well. Then came covid. By this point I dont even know how how ive made it this far. Next came a dear high schoolfriend of mine died at age 47. He came out of nowhere whenhe found out my boy had takenhis life andhe kept me a float. he was the only personwho got me because he had lost his mom dad and brother to cancer and was fighting it as well. he ended up drinking himself to deah and past October. and this year as i spent it alone with my 23 year old son thats left, my mother had to self quarenteen because she had beenexposed to the virus.my best friend who I met a year after my boy died past away on New Years eve 2020.   Sometimes i sit and just stare off into space, my mind is different and I can tell I am not he same. I am worried that this was too much for one person.

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Delilah

My son committed suicide on January 25th this year....he was 12. Wesley was a wonderful kid. We just don't know what happened. I'm sorry for your loss. The pain of losing your child is like no other. The only other pain I can compare it to would be to lose all your children. There is no pain worse and it never ends. I drive to work 2 hours 4 days a week and find myself pulling toward the center line all the time. I have 2 other small children and an adult daughter but sometimes feel they would be better off without me. I mean how does a 12 year old come to kill himself and never shows and signs or reason?

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Valerie Lockhart

Dear Mefeelspace and Delilah,

I'm sorry for the loss of your sons. While suicide cannot be justified, it is comforting to remember that the future prospects of our loved ones rest with a God who fully understands that weaknesses and frailties could push one to such desperate action. The Bible says of Jehovah: “As the heavens are higher than the earth, his loving-kindness is superior toward those fearing him. As far off as the sunrise is from the sunset, so far off from us he has put our transgressions. As a father shows mercy to his sons, Jehovah has shown mercy to those fearing him. For he himself well knows the formation of us, remembering that we are dust.”— Psalm 103:11-14. There are no problems that God cannot and will not solve in the near future. No matter how bad things may look right now, there is an answer. The Bible speaks of a resurrection of our loved ones and the prospect of living forever in Paradise on earth! Imagine the meaning that such a grand hope can give to our lives. It can help protect our minds from the disastrous results of negative thinking. In the coming Paradise, loneliness will give way to tears of joy as cherished loved ones are brought back to life by “the God who raises up the dead.” -  2 Corinthians 1:9 Then the frustration of physical frailty, pain, and immobility will be forgotten, for “the lame one will climb up just as a stag does.” A person’s ‘flesh will become fresher than in youth,’ and he will “return to the days of his youthful vigor.”— Isaiah 35:6; Job 33:25. The emptiness of chronic depression will be turned into “rejoicing to time indefinite.” - Isaiah 35:10 The hopelessness of a fatal illness will vanish along with death itself, mankind’s ancient enemy.— 1 Corinthians 15:26 . I hope the cited scriptures not only give you comfort but hope for the future. May the God of comfort take hold of your hands and walk beside you during this difficult time. 

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Dansmi

I lost my husband and youngest child four months apart.  My husband died from kidney and heart failure.  My 24 year old son committed suicide 4 months later.  It's been 3 and a half years but some days like today, it just happened.  I feel like all the love and light left my life.

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