I am lost

[Rehtaeh]

I lost my cousin (basically my brother) recently to an accidental drug overdose and I am just lost. I have been with his parents everyday trying to provide them some comfort but I cannot take their grief and they can’t take mine. This is the absolute worst thing that ever could have happened and I wasn’t even worried about it being a possibility. I was worried about jail or not getting a good career... never death. You never think it could happen to you or someone you love.. but it does. The guilt is killing me and life feels bleak, empty, cruel, meaningless.. how can anyone have hope after this kind of tragedy? He doesn’t get a second chance.. we don’t get another chance. It’s over.