I'm having such a hard time the last couple of days.  My emotions are all over the place.   I miss Scott so damn much!  Every song on the radio, every place I drive, even my phone reminds me on Tues-Wed & Saturdays that I would drive to his house!   Unlike many of you, I didn't lose my spouse, I lost my boyfriend of only 4 months.  He had cancer...I knew that when I met him but we both thought it was treatable and he would survive.  It turned bad very very quickly and we didn't eve