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April 7-11

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Mother's Day

Although I have not lost my mother, it is extremely difficult for me to exist on Mother's Day due to the strain on the relationship I used to have with my mother and the fact that I didn't raise my kids.  However, Happy Mother's Day to ALL mom's.

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Meeting Our Soulmate

So, I finally got a name from the young man who was standing behind my front door, which lead to his quickly saying, "I'm here to get Brandon and take him to work with me, today".  I said, frankly, " Good. Somebody needs to help him with work because I talked to Leonard last night, and he said that if Brandon's going to stay with us, he's got to have a job or he's got to go".  At this point, I have allowed the young man follow me inside, and gestured to the couch Brandon was sleeping o

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Jeremy Pt. 1

So, I finally got a name from the young man who was standing behind my front door, which lead to his quickly saying, "I'm here to get Brandon and take him to work with me, today".  I said, frankly, " Good. Somebody needs to help him with work because I talked to Leonard last night, and he said that if Brandon's going to stay with us, he's got to have a job or he's got to go".  At this point, I have allowed the young man follow me inside, and gestured to the couch Brandon was sleeping o

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Pennywyze43 in MEETING OUR SOULMATE

Caught up

This is the first week of school, I'm caught up until next week, except a a couple more responses to my classmates, and I have decided to share some of mine and Jeremy's story.  I'm gonna start a new Journal entry. This is for my OCD. BRB with the story.

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Looking back

Looking back at my childhood, I remember wondering why my parents didn't just leave me with dad's sister, Beth.  As the years accumulated, I continued to consider my aunt to be my mom, and I called her, Momma Beth.  Unfortunately, she passed away 13 months after my dad.  This is what made me believe that my dad and my Momma Beth were soulmates: dad was born December 16, 1952.  Momma Beth was born January 1, 1954.  Growing up, this brother and sister duo could be on the opposite side of their yar

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Losing My Marbles

I feel like I'm losing my marbles.  There's some much going on right now, and I just have to make matters worse for myself by running myself in circles looking for things that I should automatically know where my stuff is. What I'm saying is, "I can't find the card I was given proving that I had my first vaccine, and I can't get the second dose without it".  I can't login to the student portal for SNHU because of a bunch of stuff I created myself. If it's not one thing...

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Hello and welcome

@HawksOneWelcome to our circle. As you may have gathered, this circle is for those of us who have met, loved, married and lost our soulmate. As we know, the love between soulmates is like no other. If you'd like, introduce yourself, and tell us about your other half. Although the categories are not in alphabetical or chronological order, they're meant for us to give others a look at this kind of love. How we interact with our soulmate is second to none. The respect, trust, loyalty and honesty th

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I'm not sure

@HawksOneWelcome to our circle. As you may have gathered, this circle is for those of us who have met, loved, married and lost our soulmate. As we know, the love between soulmates is like no other. If you'd like, introduce yourself, and tell us about your other half. Although the categories are not in alphabetical or chronological order, they're meant for us to give others a look at this kind of love. How we interact with our soulmate is second to none. The respect, trust, loyalty and honesty th

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Hello and welcome

@HawksOneWelcome to our circle. As you may have gathered, this circle is for those of us who have met, loved, married and lost our soulmate. As we know, the love between soulmates is like no other. If you'd like, introduce yourself, and tell us about your other half. Although the categories are not in alphabetical or chronological order, they're meant for us to give others a look at this kind of love. How we interact with our soulmate is second to none. The respect, trust, loyalty and honesty th

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Pennywyze43 in Welcome

Hello and welcome

Welcome to the Soulmates Center circle, Annie. I'm grateful that you chose to join. It is truly very much appreciated you joined this circle. Feel free to post whenever you are ready. The main reason I wanted to create this circle is, so that those of us who have met, loved, fussed with, and lost our soulmates can have a place where we can talk about our soulmates, and our  special kind of love, with others who are grieving in much the same way as the next person in this circle. The bo

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Pennywyze43 in Clever Pennywyze

I'd Rather Share Here

I would rather share here because this is where I know I can share my stories about Jeremy, and I know I won't hear, "Aw, you just need to get over it". Let me tell y'all, I have heard that mess from the first week after the accident that took my soulmate from this world, and that's the most annoying, cruel, hateful thing anyone could ever say to someone grieving. Especially, if the other person hasn't ever lost someone they spent the majority of their life with. I just want to tell those annoyi

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I'd Rather Share Here

I would rather share here because this is where I know I can share my stories about Jeremy, and I know I won't hear, "Aw, you just need to get over it". Let me tell y'all, I have heard that mess from the first week after the accident that took my soulmate from this world, and that's the most annoying, cruel, hateful thing anyone could ever say to someone grieving. Especially, if the other person hasn't ever lost someone they spent the majority of their life with. I just want to tell those annoyi

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The Vaccine

It has come to my attention that, the shot protects us from dying, but not from getting sick. Okay, I can deal with that. I mean, at least it will help preserve mankind for a while longer. I am blessed due to the fact that I have O- blood; but my girl, Autumn has bronchial asthma, and my one and only sibling has COPD (first stage). Besides, I really don't want to get sick. I've been the type of person who gets chronic bronchitis and upper respiratory infections on the regular since I was little.

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Pennywyze43 in Observing and Questioning

I'm not sure

I've been all over the website here at grieving.com tryna find members. No such luck. If someone could/would, pretty please explain to me how I find a member, I will be forever grateful.   -Pennywyze

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04/12/2021

I get my COVID-19 vaccine tomorrow @ 1:00PM I've been having an excellent day, today. I'm writing the character outline for my second series books, and because I have ADHD, I am capable of writing and working on other issues at the same time. I have been doing this a lot lately because I needed to analyze everything between Steve and I, and what we do or don't have as far as a relationship is concerned.  This is what I have come to understand about Steve, he's a 57 year old man who's c

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Yesterday Wasn't That Bad

With yesterday having marked 2 years since Jeremy died, it wasn't that bad. I kept myself busy working on my novels, and by the time I realized that it was April 9, it was already 12 almost 1 in the afternoon. No tears were dropped.  Steve and I are doing better. He was really great, yesterday. He knew what day it was, and he did his best to help keep my busy. I know I have made it seem like Steve is some kind of radical jerk, but y'all have to realize that I was in relationship with someon

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2 Years, Today

Well, here we are at the 2 year mark of Jeremy's death, and I don't feel well. Not emotionally, but physically. It's not COVID-19 because the way I'm feeling, the symptoms don't match up with the ones for the virus. I feel run down, beat up, and like someone kicked me all over my body while I slept last night.

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Jeremy Pt. 2

After the accident in 2017 where Jeremy hit a baby hog (wild) tore up the front end of our KIA, I was a gnarly mess of anxiety like nobody's business. Every time we would leave Rockport, my feet were in my floorboard slamming brakes I didn't have. (BTW, the KIA was just barely over 1 year old at this point.)  In August 2018, 1 week before my 40th birthday, he fell asleep behind the wheel, of the KIA went off HWY69 @ Victoria, Texas exit, and the subcompact car hit a dip in the road. The car

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Jeremy Pt. 1

PART 1   This is the first part of the story, which leads up to Jeremy's death.   October 31, 2017   Jeremy left for work in our KIA FORTÈ 5, that morning around 4:30-5:00am. We were living in Rockport, which is by Corpus Christi in South Texas. He did not come in from work at the regular time, but he came in about 2 almost 3 hours late. When he stepped inside our trailer, he looked hagrid, (I was kinda familiar with the look because it was the same as when he wreck

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The Worst Week

This. Is. The. Worst. Week. The first of April indicates to me that I have 8 days until the next year mark. I'm never going to consider the 9th of April to be the "anniversary" of my husband's death. I'll always have a major issue with this subject because I've been convinced since I heard the details of the accident (2 weeks later): the woman who was driving, the reason our Acura rolled off the highway, she knew she would not make it through the wreck, she also deducted that Jeremy would be par

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