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Looking back

Looking back at my childhood, I remember wondering why my parents didn't just leave me with dad's sister, Beth.  As the years accumulated, I continued to consider my aunt to be my mom, and I called her, Momma Beth.  Unfortunately, she passed away 13 months after my dad.  This is what made me believe that my dad and my Momma Beth were soulmates: dad was born December 16, 1952.  Momma Beth was born January 1, 1954.  Growing up, this brother and sister duo could be on the opposite side of their yar

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Losing My Marbles

I feel like I'm losing my marbles.  There's some much going on right now, and I just have to make matters worse for myself by running myself in circles looking for things that I should automatically know where my stuff is. What I'm saying is, "I can't find the card I was given proving that I had my first vaccine, and I can't get the second dose without it".  I can't login to the student portal for SNHU because of a bunch of stuff I created myself. If it's not one thing...

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I'm so excited

I'm so excited and I just can't hide it! Yep, I went there. If y'all could see me at this point, I'm dancing in my bed with my arms over my head and my head is bobbin' like the true rocker I am. Yeah, my favorite band (I would marry the lead if not for his wife) is Shinedown. And if it weren't for the fact that Brent Smith is married, I would be his wife (lmborotfl). No, but seriously, that man took the place of my long time love Kriss Angel when Angel decided to take his show over to Spike TV a

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Hello and welcome

@HawksOneWelcome to our circle. As you may have gathered, this circle is for those of us who have met, loved, married and lost our soulmate. As we know, the love between soulmates is like no other. If you'd like, introduce yourself, and tell us about your other half. Although the categories are not in alphabetical or chronological order, they're meant for us to give others a look at this kind of love. How we interact with our soulmate is second to none. The respect, trust, loyalty and honesty th

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I'm not sure

@HawksOneWelcome to our circle. As you may have gathered, this circle is for those of us who have met, loved, married and lost our soulmate. As we know, the love between soulmates is like no other. If you'd like, introduce yourself, and tell us about your other half. Although the categories are not in alphabetical or chronological order, they're meant for us to give others a look at this kind of love. How we interact with our soulmate is second to none. The respect, trust, loyalty and honesty th

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Hello and welcome

@HawksOneWelcome to our circle. As you may have gathered, this circle is for those of us who have met, loved, married and lost our soulmate. As we know, the love between soulmates is like no other. If you'd like, introduce yourself, and tell us about your other half. Although the categories are not in alphabetical or chronological order, they're meant for us to give others a look at this kind of love. How we interact with our soulmate is second to none. The respect, trust, loyalty and honesty th

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Hello and welcome

Welcome to the Soulmates Center circle, Annie. I'm grateful that you chose to join. It is truly very much appreciated you joined this circle. Feel free to post whenever you are ready. The main reason I wanted to create this circle is, so that those of us who have met, loved, fussed with, and lost our soulmates can have a place where we can talk about our soulmates, and our  special kind of love, with others who are grieving in much the same way as the next person in this circle. The bo

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Madness of Abuse and Death, The: Part 2

My Father died of heart failure; a violent seizing of the heart. But it was the madness that brought him to that end. I was unaware when he died; but when I found out, I plummeted into what seemed like a whole different world; a nightmare of unreality. Suddenly, Life became Death to me; with an all-consuming hunger not yet satisfied to return to Life again. I wonder now if that is what madness was like to him, this unreality. To a man who loves his family; seeing it disintegrate into Us vs. Them

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TLN in Honoring the Dead

Question???

Question: Did any of you guys have the news of losing your loved one hit you so hard that your physical being was affected? What I mean: I'll explain what happened to me so you can understand completely. Not because you are not intelligent enough to grasp it, but because of me.  I got the news on 04/09/19, the same day as the accident. It happened around 1:30AM, and around 12 hours later, I was informed. I felt like I couldn't breathe, I felt like I was going to fall apart at the seams, and

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I'd Rather Share Here

I would rather share here because this is where I know I can share my stories about Jeremy, and I know I won't hear, "Aw, you just need to get over it". Let me tell y'all, I have heard that mess from the first week after the accident that took my soulmate from this world, and that's the most annoying, cruel, hateful thing anyone could ever say to someone grieving. Especially, if the other person hasn't ever lost someone they spent the majority of their life with. I just want to tell those annoyi

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I'd Rather Share Here

I would rather share here because this is where I know I can share my stories about Jeremy, and I know I won't hear, "Aw, you just need to get over it". Let me tell y'all, I have heard that mess from the first week after the accident that took my soulmate from this world, and that's the most annoying, cruel, hateful thing anyone could ever say to someone grieving. Especially, if the other person hasn't ever lost someone they spent the majority of their life with. I just want to tell those annoyi

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Madness of Abuse and Death, The

My Father plunged into madness when I was molested as a child. One facet of that plunge was the fact that everyone else in my family acted (and still do) as though the sexual abuse was "no big deal". They failed to understand the gravity of what had been done to me; and he spent his life since that day trying to make them understand the damage done to me, to the family, and to himself. To this day, not one of them will acknowledge the atrocity; not one of them understands--no, not one. It is not

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04/15/2021

I have had an excellent day. I forced myself to grab ahold of some patience, and figure out my internet connection. When I received the equipment, I came to realize that the internet cable that is run through a hole in the apartment wall for cable and internet service to be activated, did not have service. However, at that point, I was already upset. That, was Monday. Today, I finally went back into the living room, and contacted Xfinity's customer service. In the process of this chat, I acciden

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The Vaccine

It has come to my attention that, the shot protects us from dying, but not from getting sick. Okay, I can deal with that. I mean, at least it will help preserve mankind for a while longer. I am blessed due to the fact that I have O- blood; but my girl, Autumn has bronchial asthma, and my one and only sibling has COPD (first stage). Besides, I really don't want to get sick. I've been the type of person who gets chronic bronchitis and upper respiratory infections on the regular since I was little.

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I'm not sure

I've been all over the website here at grieving.com tryna find members. No such luck. If someone could/would, pretty please explain to me how I find a member, I will be forever grateful.   -Pennywyze

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Thanks

@Gail8588 @foreverhis @widower2 @KayC I just wanted to take a moment to thank each of you for your story and laughs. I was attempting to make individual thank yous, but ran into an issue, I'm still trying to figure out. So, I decided to make a post and thank y'all at the same time.

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Still crying

I never realized how much I would miss Wayne, until today. I've had a very emotional day today. I've posted on here more times today than I have since I found this website. I didn't cry one tear for Jeremy on the ninth. Not because I don't love him. Not because of anything someone said. I didn't cry for my husband because I kept myself submersed in my writing.    I love you Wayne. I'll try not to make the next post so much about Jeremy. Today has just been exhausting and emotional and

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04/12/2021

I get my COVID-19 vaccine tomorrow @ 1:00PM I've been having an excellent day, today. I'm writing the character outline for my second series books, and because I have ADHD, I am capable of writing and working on other issues at the same time. I have been doing this a lot lately because I needed to analyze everything between Steve and I, and what we do or don't have as far as a relationship is concerned.  This is what I have come to understand about Steve, he's a 57 year old man who's c

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Yesterday Wasn't That Bad

With yesterday having marked 2 years since Jeremy died, it wasn't that bad. I kept myself busy working on my novels, and by the time I realized that it was April 9, it was already 12 almost 1 in the afternoon. No tears were dropped.  Steve and I are doing better. He was really great, yesterday. He knew what day it was, and he did his best to help keep my busy. I know I have made it seem like Steve is some kind of radical jerk, but y'all have to realize that I was in relationship with someon

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2 Years, Today

Well, here we are at the 2 year mark of Jeremy's death, and I don't feel well. Not emotionally, but physically. It's not COVID-19 because the way I'm feeling, the symptoms don't match up with the ones for the virus. I feel run down, beat up, and like someone kicked me all over my body while I slept last night.

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Jeremy Pt. 2

After the accident in 2017 where Jeremy hit a baby hog (wild) tore up the front end of our KIA, I was a gnarly mess of anxiety like nobody's business. Every time we would leave Rockport, my feet were in my floorboard slamming brakes I didn't have. (BTW, the KIA was just barely over 1 year old at this point.)  In August 2018, 1 week before my 40th birthday, he fell asleep behind the wheel, of the KIA went off HWY69 @ Victoria, Texas exit, and the subcompact car hit a dip in the road. The car

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Pennywyze43 in Jeremy Atwell

Jeremy Pt. 1

PART 1   This is the first part of the story, which leads up to Jeremy's death.   October 31, 2017   Jeremy left for work in our KIA FORTÈ 5, that morning around 4:30-5:00am. We were living in Rockport, which is by Corpus Christi in South Texas. He did not come in from work at the regular time, but he came in about 2 almost 3 hours late. When he stepped inside our trailer, he looked hagrid, (I was kinda familiar with the look because it was the same as when he wreck

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