Members Broken mommy Posted September 29, 2016 Members Report Share Posted September 29, 2016 I lost my baby boy on the 23 of July 2015, just a few days before he turned 1 year. Even writing this now i'm still shaking and i at least have made peace with the fact that my life will never be the same again but that doesn't make the pain any better. I'm 25 and this was my 1st baby , i didn't only lose my child but i lost everything i never believed in and i feel nothing but loneliness every second of my life. Here is the story of how i lost the only thing that ever meant anything to me... Just after finishing college with a baby as a bonus degree, i was called in for an interview for my 1st internship, i felt life was coming together for me and my baby, stepmom offered to take my baby with for few days till i got hang on my job little did i know that was the last time i will see my little angel alive. Till today i don't really know what happened. My so called family was never supportive when i dealt with this and i decided to call it quits with them since i couldn't stand their cruelty towards me. i go through this everyday and ask myself questions that i an never answer. My whole life has gone downhill since then , i'm a good example of emotional wreck Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Tommy's mum Posted October 15, 2016 Members Report Share Posted October 15, 2016 Lonliness is normal. I withdrew from everything i developed a fear of answering my phone i could not talk to my much loved brother and sister for several weeks because of the phone issue. I could not sleep, had nightmares for months, and either did not eat or over ate. I could not find the energy to shower or take care of myself in any way i fell apart. I could not leave my house and cut off friends. !4 months on I am slowly getting there tho i am not well enough to work. i am able to go out and take better care of myself but it has taken months and months and i still take a nosedive but the recovery time is shorter now. I advise small steps and trying to set small targets to get yourself back into life and with the intention of losing the lonliness. make calls, try to meet up with a close friend for coffee or a short walk anything to stop the isolation of yourself that we all do. It is so hard to reemerge into the world and begin living but we all have the capacity to do it just on different timescales. Small steps Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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