Still reliving the grief

[cheryl36]

Hello everyone!!  I am not new to this thread nor to this community.  My name is Cheryl and have often been on the widows thread many, many times.  I'm not going into my situation all over again because I'm sure you've all heard it enough.  I have tried to start over again, granted it will be 5 years this November since my Scott passed.  I since have remarried to a wonderful, sensitive man.  However, I long for my Scott, and still cry for him, I cried all last week over him.  Though I must say that I have gotten better over the past few years, But it still brins me to my knees.  I did exactly what my husband (Scott) wanted me to do with my life, I still feel regret, and have a heavy heart.  I still want to be with Scott.  I know this sounds crazy, and I'm so very sorry to throw all this on you wonderful people that have also lost their most dear and beloved as well.  It almost feels like an affair.  Don't get me wrong I have had this very conversation with my now husband, and bless his heart he tries to understand, but I can see it in his eyes, so I try not to talk about it to him as much.  I have resigned myself to the fact that I will always feel this way.

[Kelly]

Dear Members,

We are excited to mention that we are moving to a more new and improved message boards on MONDAY MORNING AUGUST 9th! The boards will be done for a few hours while we are making the conversation. Remember we posted information about this move a month ago. For some of you this might seem a bit sudden,  but when we were reviewing the site we determined the current message board you are using is out of date and the company that designed it is no longer in existence. The good news is this new message board will have new features that have been requested in the past like more fields we can add to your profiles and a chat room up to 20 people at one time. If we find the chat room is bursting at the seams we will add additional room for extra people. All your old posts, private messages and such will be migrated to the new message board. You might have to put up your profile picture again but not sure. The new company will be doing the migration for us. Here is a short list of some of the new features on the board:

- Custom Profile Fields

- Users can customize their profile pages by selecting a background color or background image, with tiling options.

- Facebook and Twitter Integration

- users can respond to multiple posts at once with "mini-quote"

- Pinned discussion threads - like welcome to our board etc.

- Announcements made across some boards or the entire message board

- Search: Users can easily find all content generated by a particular member, by clicking the 'Find Content' button that appears on the main profile page, or in the Mini Profile Popup which can be accessed throughout the board. The results page allows content to be filtered by application, as well whether the member created it or merely participated in it.

- Privacy: allows users to sign in anonymously, hiding them from the online users list. Users also have the option to disable personal conversations and user-to-user emails, as well as ignore other users if necessary.

The next exciting piece of news about the new message board is it will have a new domain name of www.grieving.com for search engine optimization purposes. It will still be apart of Beyond Indigo and can be found through www.beyondindigo.com. We will be redirecting your current URL's to this new domain name but we might miss a few. If that is the case simply go back to www.grieving.com or www.beyondindigo.com to find your message board thread. We will try to make the transition as seamless as possible.

The bottom line is the new board will give us room to grow our community and more options to interact better with each other.

If you have any questions please direct them to feedback@beyondindigo.com.

Kelly Baltzell, MA

CEO/President

Beyond Indigo Family