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Dear Maya77,

I'm very sorry to hear how you feel. They say the second year of grief is even harder than the first because it hits us all over again. Its really hard.

Please know we are all here to support you. I feel the same way. I keep trying to take it moment by moment.

Take care of yourself.

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Dear @Lisa k,

Been thinking about you. I hope your treatment is finished and you are doing well.

Hard to believe its already September going into October.

Take care my friend. Hope you are well. With much love and hugs.


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Hi everyone. How is everyone doing? :rolleyes: A couple of months ago my husband told me that my friend went into him in work and told him that another friend of mine didn't like me. This morning when I dropped my son to school I kindly confronted her and my other friend. We decided to go for a coffee and we talked. Absolutely none of it is true, my other friend who supposedly said this to my husband doesn't even know him! I can't believe he would lie to me this way. Last night we where taking, and o said to him I never got to grieve for my mam, and he said that I have had all the time I need - he said he had to take a week of work and nearly lost his job over my mama death!! This has hurt me beyond words. I was extremely close to my mam - she was, is and always will be everything to me. I could talk to her about anything. She always knew if i was having a bad day. Even when we spoke on the phone she knew by the sound of my voice if I was ok or not... Now I feel like I have no one  - other than my 5 year old son. He threatens me that he will take him away from me if I don't 'sort my self out' and 'get over it for my son's sake' that Is so completely unfair. I don't know where to go from here... Do i confront him or bury it like it bottle up everything else. I am not close with my dad. If me and my husband argue, my dad takes his side.

Okay yes I have 'lied' in the past my husband is a heavy drinker and after work (he is a chef) he enjoys a couple of drinks. He would usually always drink after work. Then when he gets home he would say you should go to bed as our son is up for school. I always take him to school. I cook for him, clean the house do dishes, laundry all while my husband sleeps!! It's not at all fair. I feel like I'm gonna explode if I don't get the chance to grieve for my mam in the way I want and need to. What do i do here? Am o being selfish? Unreasonable? Petty? I feel so selfish I really really do. My husband also said on a few occasions that if I don't go to bed etc or talk about him to other people that he will pull the furniture out of the house, get rid of Virgin media  (our tv satellite) and take my son. I feel so lost and alone and upset. I cant take this anymore, I'm gonna snap! Seriously I am!

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Hi. I feel so so messed up. My head is a mess basically my whole life is a mess. I have tried to suppress my grief about my beautiful man for the past 23 months. it will be two years at the end of October. I am so so angry ALL the time. My dad never wants to hear how I am feeling. I stay up late - always did then sometimes the next day I will usually sleep til 2/2:30/3/3:30 or later. (When my husband is off work) I am struggling to raise my 5 (soon to be 6) year old son. He is my life but I feel that I never go the time I needed to grieve - I was TOLD by my dad and husband to just move on and take care of my son. So that's what I did  - I suppressed it. Its so unfair.  both of them have a negative opinion on whatever I do. I smoke cigarettes. (Started when my mam passed away to try and cope) now I am addicted to them. So what it's my business. There are thousands of parents who smoke so why am I being singled out??? My husband smokes too. Has done for 22 or more years. I look after my son, but now I feel I can't do it anymore. I have tried brevemeant counselling and I feel it hasn't helped. I'm not ready to move on, why can't people just leave me alone and let me do what I need to do??? I am also addicted to prescription drugs but I take them when i feel I just can't cope anymore... My dad has done some pretty unforgivable things since my mam died which I will NEVER forgive him for. Me and my dad where never close. Where even further apart now. He doesn't care how I feel. He got over my mam way too quickly and that hurt me. My son hates me. He speaks to me with such disrespect it's disgusting. Then I run my mouth and fire right back and just tell or scream at him constantly. What do i do??? Before I just say f*** it and kill myself???? PLEASE HELP MEE!!!!

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1800 247 247

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Tel: 01 623 5606

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I haven't slept yet. Have been awake since 3:30pm yesterday afternoon. This morning around 5/6am I took 5 tramadol and 5 tylex tabs I have no idea what the mg was on them. I am so stressed out. My beautiful man passed away almost 2 years ago next month and I have NEVER got the chance to grieve as I have my 5 y/o son to take care off. My husband is a workacholic and my dad doesn't want to know how I feel any more. To them I need to "get over it" it's not at all fair  I have no one. What do i do. I can't be a mother to my son as I need to help myself first. I have vomited 3 times already today. The last episode  being horrendous . What do i do. I am told by my dad and husband I am selfish. And I hear voices in my head telling me to kill myself. Help.....

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Dear Mariesgril, I am so sorry for your loss of you Mam. And you have my deepest sympathies and condolences. I too lost a mother 6 months ago, so I know what it feels like. You have a need to grieve and need to allow yourself time to grieve. Don't listen to your husband and Dad. It takes times to heal. You need to talk to a counselor or therapist so they can help you heal. You will feel better eventually. I am starting to feel better and have hope for the future, so I know it is possible to heal. Please, Please, Please, find a therapist in your town. Maybe the town has free help. I went to a therapist and she helped me so very much. And also talk to your doctor, maybe your doctor can also help. The loss of a mother is so very hard and deeply emotional. Please know that everyone here cares for you and is concerned about you. Allow yourself time to grieve and find help. Love!

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