Members mazza4008 Posted December 24, 2008 Members Report Share Posted December 24, 2008 Dearest Tony,Miss you so much words cannot descibe not having you here to share this christmas with us. Their is so much i want to say but in a word we love you and will have you in our hearts as we sit around the dinner table . Their will be an emptiness without your laughter and smile. My children will miss your stories and my parents have a sadness that will never disappear. We hope you are watching over us and are their in spirit . You will be in our hearts forever you will be forever my one and only amazing brother. Love Mazza. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members alayla Posted January 15, 2009 Members Report Share Posted January 15, 2009 That made me cry. This past Christmas was my first without my brother Shelby. It was so lonely. My mom was drinking by Christmas morning, she never really drinks at all. My dad hardly smiled... I felt empty. I wanted nothing more than to hold my brother and tell him Merry Ho-Ho like we always used to do. Now the thought of the phrase makes me feel cold and hollow inside... But seriously. Thank you so much for sharing your heart. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members mazza4008 Posted January 18, 2009 Author Members Report Share Posted January 18, 2009 Hi There,Thanks for the reply its nice to know their are people such as I who struggle everyday with the thought of their sibling not around, today was my birthday and even though my kids and my husband were doing their best to make it special their was an emptiness inside me that wont ever disappear. Reading your message about your loss of your brother is heart wrenching . I hope you can talk face to face with someone or a group who will help. I am possibly going to try it too. Found that people and friends who havent experienced loss loose interest in listening and try and be simpathetic. I hope this forum will help take care. Mazza Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members tcampione Posted January 20, 2009 Members Report Share Posted January 20, 2009 [user=23440]mazza4008[/user] wrote: Hi There,. . . its nice to know their are people such as I who struggle everyday with the thought of their sibling not around. . .Yes, there are many. I lost my cousin who to me was my brother, in the WTC attack. Here we are, 7+ years later and the depth of the emotion is still unbelievable. Somehow, we all make it through another day, but often it is very tough. In a book that I read recently (I think it was Letters to Sarah) a statement was made that really struck me. "Extreme grief is the price we pay for extreme love."/*tom*/ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members jackiewitter Posted January 20, 2009 Members Report Share Posted January 20, 2009 Hi Mazza, Alayla and TomI just wanted to 2nd the statement regarding the depth of emotion. I move onto the 3rd year that the celebration of his birth date will pass without him. While the feelings of pain and sorrow have lost some of the intensity, the frequency has not changed, he is in my thoughts when I drift off to sleep and he is the first thing that I think of when I wake. For a brief moment in the mornings, while I am still groggy with sleep, all is well, but within the few minutes of awaking, that is the first thought that comes to my mind, Jeffrey is no longer here. The world is not the same for me, and of course it never will be. I find tremendous sadness in that. I see my children moving forward like there has been no change in their lives, and I should be happy for that, but I am not. I am jealous and at times I am angry that their lives don't seem to have the darkness over them like I feel mine does. Then I feel such guilt that just because my forward motion has stopped, I should be grateful that theirs has not. I have found this website to be a Godsend. I don't know what I would have done without my friends here. I not longer come here daily, but feel the need to check in on my friends and to offer any support that I can for the new people. I wish you all the best and I hope that you can find some solace and companionship here. This is a road like no other and each ones path is so unique and individual, but those who have lost their brothers are sisters know that the path goes on and does not end, it just gets a little easier to travel some days. My thoughts are with you all, peace and blessings, Jackie Johnny Cash: "There is no way around grief and loss: you can dodge all you want, but sooner or later you just have to go into in, through it and hopefully come out the other side. The world you find there will never be the same as the world you left."Shakespeare: "my grief lies all within, And these external manners of lament are merely shadows to the unseen grief that swells with silence in the tortured soul". Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members alayla Posted January 20, 2009 Members Report Share Posted January 20, 2009 [user=23440]mazza4008[/user] wrote: Hi There,Thanks for the reply its nice to know their are people such as I who struggle everyday with the thought of their sibling not around, today was my birthday and even though my kids and my husband were doing their best to make it special their was an emptiness inside me that wont ever disappear. Reading your message about your loss of your brother is heart wrenching . I hope you can talk face to face with someone or a group who will help. I am possibly going to try it too. Found that people and friends who havent experienced loss loose interest in listening and try and be simpathetic. I hope this forum will help take care. MazzaI understand completely... I hope that you can find someplace to go as well, to deal with this pain, I mean. Best of luck. Blessed Be. ~Alayla Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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