Members Yadairaisabel Posted November 22, 2012 Members Report Share Posted November 22, 2012 November 5th, 2012 my life took a complete turn towards the worse. Just three weeks earlier we saw our daughter Sophia's birth. I still replay that night on my mind and I just can't understand why he's gone. Chuck suffered from epilepsy and I had never seen him go thru a seizure before. He was completely fine that night till 1am when he got up and asked me to let him sleep by the wall the last words I heard from him were watch out he dropped as he shook I held him thru it and then he was gone he was only 24 and we have two beautiful kids our now 5 wk old Sophie and our 3 yr old Alex. I know it's selfish of me to not want to celebrate but how can I when the love of my life is gone our plans faded away:( my heart is broken and I don't know how to cope with this he taught me so much but he didn't teach me how to live without him. Tomorrow is thanksgiving my first without my baby and I don't know what to do with myself. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members aellenlc Posted November 22, 2012 Members Report Share Posted November 22, 2012 Yadairaisabel,I am so sorry for your loss and I am glad you found this site. I do not think you are selfish for not wanting to celebrate Thanksgiving, I feel the same way. I lost my husband to cancer on October 26th, he was diagnosed in September. It all happened so fast, a lot of people did not even know he was sick. I could never relate to people who suffered a loss because I had never been in their position. Now I understand the pain and suffering, even though the circumstance may not be the same. You can never prepare for the pain that follows such a loss, and I wish I could give some words of wisdom to help with your healing. The hardest part for me was seeing my sisters and brother with their families all happy and whole. I was jealous and I did not want to be around them. I hope you keep posting and find some comfort here.Andrea Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Yadairaisabel Posted November 22, 2012 Author Members Report Share Posted November 22, 2012 Thank you Andrea. I'm sorry for your loss I also wish I had comforting words but unfortunately I have none. I know that time will help but a loss like this is one you never truly recover from. I'm glad I found this site because there's so many people here that understand how I feel and I can understand them. Most of my friends have never gone thru a loss and my family is too yurt to even comfort. I just hope to see his smile once again once my time comes. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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