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lenaleanna

Halloween- they are now selling decorations!

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My mother committed suicide October 28th, 2011. I have enough issues with this, but Menards and Walmart are already selling decorations and such for this holiday in August. Just another reminder it will soon be 1 year.

It wasn't but just another average day, my husband and I had to go to Menards to purchase things for a project we were working on. We went in and got a cart- walking around I stumbled across that section of the store for seasonal items- I was so caught of guard, I started to shake and bawl. I couldn't find the restroom fast enough. My husband was on the other side of the store ordering sheetrock and had no idea where I was. Panic struck me knowing he wouldn't be able to find me and I needed his arms. I was a mess and couldn't bear walking through the store as disheveled as I was. I had to wait until he came to find me. By that time my make up was gone and my hair was a mess. He had to escort me to the truck and go back and finish our purchases.

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Dear Jeannie - my name is val. i can understand your upset at the halloween items. i saw them at walmart the other day too. my husband just died july 5 2012. last year we had such a great time putting votives all along our porch rail and giving out candy. jerrry was always so generous that he'd give them fifty cents when we ran out of candy. i remember it like it was yesterday. that won't be happening this year; i'll probably just turn the ligjts out and go to bed.

i miss my husband desperately. we were the perfect team. no children, just a kitty. jerry was only 58 and died in his sleep. the day after we had a beautiful fourth of july i found him blueish early am. i am traumatized by it. i cried reading your post because i remember how he always supported me and put his arms around me when I was upset, just like your husband does. please accept my sincere condolences for the loss of your m other. please keep coming back and post more. this website has gotten me through some really tough times. hugs, val

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Dear Jeannie - my name is val. i can understand your upset at the halloween items. i saw them at walmart the other day too. my husband just died july 5 2012. last year we had such a great time putting votives all along our porch rail and giving out candy. jerrry was always so generous that he'd give them fifty cents when we ran out of candy. i remember it like it was yesterday. that won't be happening this year; i'll probably just turn the ligjts out and go to bed.

i miss my husband desperately. we were the perfect team. no children, just a kitty. jerry was only 58 and died in his sleep. the day after we had a beautiful fourth of july i found him blueish early am. i am traumatized by it. i cried reading your post because i remember how he always supported me and put his arms around me when I was upset, just like your husband does. please accept my sincere condolences for the loss of your m other. please keep coming back and post more. this website has gotten me through some really tough times. hugs, val

Thank you Val, I am very sorry to hear of your loss, I really have no idea what I would do without my husband especially now. Normally the kids and I decorate and go all out for Halloween, I would start decorating early October and by the last day our house looked and felt "haunted"- lol. My mother said I always went over board for the holidays. Well between Halloween and Thanksgiving- it's just too hard to pull it together this year- as last year's Thanksgiving was the first without her living. To my surprise I some how survived the holidays but late January of this year it all caught up with me and I spent a few days away from my family. I was put in the hospital for extreme mental "issues". My fear was that my husband would leave me there- lol- I have no idea why I felt that at the time- I was a bit loopy emotionally. They put me on anti-anxiety and anti-depressants and I did feel "better". Just still felt "lost" without my mom there to even "fight" with if needed. She was a fighter- I don't know why she did what she did, it makes almost no sense.

Thank you for this site!

Jeannie

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