Members Shawnsfriend Posted February 26, 2012 Members Report Share Posted February 26, 2012 i've been trying to fight the urge but i feel it, any minute, the grief waves are about to overtake me ... *sigh* Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members vivkib Posted February 26, 2012 Members Report Share Posted February 26, 2012 i've been trying to fight the urge but i feel it, any minute, the grief waves are about to overtake me ... *sigh*This too is a normal part of grieving I have found out. I go through this at least once a month. The feeling starts and I fight it cause I don't want the tears to come and never stop, it only works for a few days, then no matter how hard I try, it comes anyway. Hang in there and you'll get through it. I found sometimes it best to not fight it and let it happen. Hugs and prayers. Vivian-Kevin's mom Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Mark1967 Posted February 26, 2012 Members Report Share Posted February 26, 2012 Sometimes it helps to have a good cry. I understand what you mean by a relapse. Today has been one of my lowest days since the first two weeks after it happened. I almost wish I were dead myself at times. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Shawnsfriend Posted February 27, 2012 Author Members Report Share Posted February 27, 2012 me too - not that its death i want, i just want to be with my bestfriend again ...Sometimes it helps to have a good cry. I understand what you mean by a relapse. Today has been one of my lowest days since the first two weeks after it happened. I almost wish I were dead myself at times. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members ModKonnie Posted February 27, 2012 Members Report Share Posted February 27, 2012 i've been trying to fight the urge but i feel it, any minute, the grief waves are about to overtake me ... *sigh*Shawn, What happens when you feel the grief waves? How do you feel? What do you do? I know this is tough, but talking about it really does help. It's good you came and told us. ModKonnie Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Shawnsfriend Posted February 28, 2012 Author Members Report Share Posted February 28, 2012 Well the first thing i do is call Patrick (the remaining bestfriend who was apart of the trio) and he just gets upset because he thinks shawn is in a better place and not sufferring anymore and that I should be happy for shawn. (obviously those words arent comforting) - so then i just lay in bed and cry, thinking about shawn. I usually look through old pictures, re-read old emails or letters., listen to sad music (songs that shawn sent me over the years). I stop eating again, I stay in bed, ignore my phone, dont answer the door, - I just crawl under a rock for 2 -3 days Kinda how im feeling right now ... Yeah i guess hes in a better place but I MISS HIM and i NEED my bestfriend here. He was the MOST important person in my life ... I've lost my path, I cant call him when im stressed or depressed, I cant fight with him no more, I cant listen to him encouraging me, I cant hear him saying "I love you". I feel helpless and hopless, I feel like a SHELL just going through life, empty and hurting inside, smiling on the outside but broken in the inside.I feel like the day after i found out he died Shawn, What happens when you feel the grief waves? How do you feel? What do you do? I know this is tough, but talking about it really does help. It's good you came and told us. ModKonnie Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Shawnsfriend Posted February 28, 2012 Author Members Report Share Posted February 28, 2012 I feel like the shoe on the other foot is about to drop ANY MINUTE now, and this FRONT that ive been putting up is going to DROP! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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