Members daddy's_sweetheart Posted January 18, 2018 Members Report Share Posted January 18, 2018 I'm 19 years old and I'm homeless. I am staying in a temp. household. Even tho i'm 19, i feel 9 years old. I walked around and feel like there is no aim or destenation. Ever since i lost my dad, i lost all my family except for my 13 year old brother. I can't lean on him because i have to be the bigger person to him. He was my best friend growing up. It kills me to see him each time. Watching him as he grows up without my dad. I love and apperciate the home i'm staying at, but sometimes I can't get away or have my own things. It's not a getaway or an emotional safe place to be. I don't have my safety zone, and with no family or friends to vistit i have no safety zone out of this home. I go to work and put all my courage into making it through my hours and woking hard. I can't go to a park or public place because it's so cold outside and I can't let my guard down. I'm trapped. No family, no friends, no home. I already have no dad, so i have no clue why the rest is happening. The world can be so cruel and unfair at times. It doesn't help when your only enviorment just isn't a comfort or a peaceful thing. I hope God is really listening to me, I write on here because i honestly don't know where else to go to. It starting to feel like if i can't have a family, friends, a home. After losing the one and only person who had my back. Then maybe I'm not worth anything. or being here on earth. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members tessa Posted January 18, 2018 Members Report Share Posted January 18, 2018 Hi daddy's_sweetheart, Life is not fair, life can be cruel. Bad things happen to good people. But we are only given tests that we can pass and you will pass this too. My mother was in the same situation as you when she was your age. She lost her mother when she was 14 and her father when she was 18. A the age of 18 she had no one. No brothers/sisters, no cousins, no parents/aunts/uncles, no one in this world. She made it through. She found friends, she found her inner strength. She gave birth to us and lived to the ripe old age of 86. Are there any groups that you can join in your neighborhood. Do you play sport or music or something that you can join a team/group. Can you join a Church fellowship or some other meet-up. Some interest/activity that you can enjoy with other people so you can find a friend. It all feels hopeless now but in time, other people will move into your life. Hang in there. One day at a time. I send you and your brother a BIG HUG Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members tessa Posted January 18, 2018 Members Report Share Posted January 18, 2018 Hi, me again. Just wanted to say - have you had a look at griefshare.org See if there is a group near you that you can join Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members reader Posted January 18, 2018 Members Report Share Posted January 18, 2018 Dear Daddy's Sweetheart, I'm so sorry to hear how you feel. I know its really hard. Sending you love and hugs. Please know you are not alone. We are all here to listen and support you. I would second Tessa's suggestions. I know it won't be easy but there are good people in the world. I too find it hard to make connections but there are so many ways to build a social network. Maybe consider joining a grief support group. MeetUp groups, church and other activities might provide you and your brother additional supports. And hopefully through work you have a few good friends there too. Thinking of you. Please keep writing and letting us know how are doing. With all my thoughts and prayers. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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