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Fernicity

Moving on with Life

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My husband died a year ago. I miss him, but realize the past is the past. I don't want to take off my wedding rings, so I've been wearing them on my right hand for 6 months or so. I was a caregiver for him for 4 years. Currently, I am keeping a long distance eye on my elderly mom, having made five 600 mile round trips in the past 2 months. She can be on her own, except she gets anxiety bouts since getting out of a nursing home physical therapy rehab. (Her doc finally put her on Lexapro, so I hope it helps!)  I find myself getting worn out emotionally as I did with my husband. I miss being at my own home. I've only spent 2 weeks at my own house in the last 2 months. My siblings, for unknown reasons, can't or won't deal with Mom's issues. I'm retired and widowed, so they think it's up to me. I don't mind spending time with mom, but I need home time, too. I also want to date. Seriously need male companionship. An adult male stepson lives with me and we are great roommates and have fun, but I also need to find a love interest. However, due to finances, I shall never remarry. I have lots of years ahead of me, and don't want to waste any of them through perpetual grief. Some folks think I'm not appropriately grieving, but I loved my husband. It's just that I have never felt the need to stop living and enjoying life. This month, I am re painting our/my bedroom, getting a new smaller bed, pitching a few dressers and making our/my room work for me. My friends are horrified. Why? I've always hated the color my hubby picked out for our room. I'm moving on... Am I the only one? Why do people try to make me feel guilty for wanting to live and enjoy life?

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Why do people not help us to move on and love our lives? Why do some try to force us into their ideas of appropriate mourning? I don't love my hubby any less than those who have been in deep mourning. I just want to honor my husband by living and enjoying my family and friends. What is so wrong with that?

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I am so sorry for the loss of your husband, but I think it's wonderful that you are moving forward in such a positive way. Your grieving/mourning are yours. The time frame is yours. Don't let the naysayers drag you down. If you are ready to look for another relationship, then do it. There is nothing wrong with your zest for life. You are still alive, so enjoy it. 

ModKonnie

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