Members Anniebelle Posted January 19, 2017 Members Report Share Posted January 19, 2017 3 weeks ago to this day both of my parents passed away. The hardest part about it is that it wasn't by old age or an accident or anything like that. My father murdered my mother before taking his own life. When I found out I screamed and my heart felt like it was being ripped from my chest. I have been having recurring nightmares that they die in the same way they did in the waking life. I wake up startled and in my disoriented half asleep daze I tell myself it's just a dream and then reality sinks in. I miss them both so terribly. My psychiatrist had upped my medication and put me on new ones. Still I cant stop the nightmares and flashbacks I have of what happened even though I wasn't there. It breaks my heart that one of my brothers saw it happen before his very own eyes. My life feels like it's over. Every holiday and birthday will never be the same. I know that people need me, but inside I'm screaming. I really don't know how to carry on anymore. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members reader Posted January 19, 2017 Members Report Share Posted January 19, 2017 Dear Anniebelle, I am so sorry to hear about what happened three years ago. You are not alone. There are so many people that love you and care about you. I know its hard to carry on after such a terrible loss. And you are doing the very best you can under the circumstances. Please try to surround yourself with your caring friends and family. Seek out additional supports if you can through the community, church, school, or work. I know the pain is hard to bear. Its unimaginable what you've been through. Thinking of you. Sending you lots of loves and hugs. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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