I miss her...

[shappz]

Hi everyone, I lost my mum last February and as a good half italian boy, was very close to my mama.  I made a tribute for her when she was alive for her 70th birthday, and then she got sick.  I was making a documentary around the world and I had to cut it short to come back and help look after her.

She had a very hard 18 month journey and even though we all prayed for relief, the end was still very much a shock to us all.  I completed the last part of her story / movie just in time for her funeral.

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It was a lovely send off for her, but I find myself everyday wishing I could have done more to ease her suffering.

I hope this post of my Mum's tribute/video helps someone out there who needs to know that everyone has a story and no matter what suffering you are going through, people notice, and people remember. Stories are forever.

Take care all.

Ciao

Shap.

[mrscc529]

Beautifully done.  I read it all and watched it all.  The music was exquisite.  The entire video was poetry in motion and I cried most of the way through it!  I wish I had known your mother.  Her personality was portrayed so well in your tribute that I feel I did know her.  She lived life with vigor and is an inspiration.  Her story is fascinating.  I am very sorry for your great loss.  I believe she will always be near you.

[jcintx]

My mother passed away on December 16 and I’m deep in the throes of grief. When I feel I can do it without falling apart, I’ll watch your video. Right now it’s just too hard. I did want to mention that for Mother’s funeral I went through boxes of photos, scanned them, and had them set up as a slideshow accompanied by You Raise Me Up by Josh Groban. I was scared that I would fall apart at the funeral when they showed it but surprisingly, I didn’t and seeing the photos and hearing that beautiful song actually brought comfort to me and to the rest of the family as well. After being so close to her all these years, as we both grew older, the change in her was so gradual. I had not thought about how strikingly beautiful she was when younger, how sweet her face was as a teen, how gentle and kind her smile was even at the end of her time when she was so ill. I guess we fail to really look at each other after so many years together. Her younger sister cried at seeing the photos; she said she had never seen them and it really touched her to see my mom again as a young woman in her prime. I gave her the one she loved most and I’ve had others enlarged and framed. I look at them constantly and sometimes kiss them. Sweet Lord in Heaven, I miss her so much, my heart just aches with pain.

[shappz]

Thank you. I understand the pain, the ache.  Its coming on to a year for me and all I can say is that you must take each step in your own way. You will have many times of "what ifs" and "If Onlys".  They amount to the same result, in upsetting yourself.  I know, i have done this, (and still do).  I do know that for her, the pain is over.  The only thing she can feel now is how much I love her.  I have made the concious decision now to stop the "sentence" i have placed on myself, this grief.  I must move on, for that is what Mum would have wanted me to do.  If I don't, I'm not honouring her memory.

[Kelly]

Dear Members,

We are excited to mention that we are moving to a more new and improved message boards on MONDAY MORNING AUGUST 9th! The boards will be done for a few hours while we are making the conversation. Remember we posted information about this move a month ago. For some of you this might seem a bit sudden,  but when we were reviewing the site we determined the current message board you are using is out of date and the company that designed it is no longer in existence. The good news is this new message board will have new features that have been requested in the past like more fields we can add to your profiles and a chat room up to 20 people at one time. If we find the chat room is bursting at the seams we will add additional room for extra people. All your old posts, private messages and such will be migrated to the new message board. You might have to put up your profile picture again but not sure. The new company will be doing the migration for us. Here is a short list of some of the new features on the board:

- Custom Profile Fields- Users can customize their profile pages by selecting a background color or background image, with tiling options.- Facebook and Twitter Integration- users can respond to multiple posts at once with "mini-quote"- Pinned discussion threads - like welcome to our board etc.- Announcements made across some boards or the entire message board- Search: Users can easily find all content generated by a particular member, by clicking the 'Find Content' button that appears on the main profile page, or in the Mini Profile Popup which can be accessed throughout the board. The results page allows content to be filtered by application, as well whether the member created it or merely participated in it. - Privacy: allows users to sign in anonymously, hiding them from the online users list. Users also have the option to disable personal conversations and user-to-user emails, as well as ignore other users if necessary.

The next exciting piece of news about the new message board is it will have a new domain name of www.grieving.com for search engine optimization purposes. It will still be apart of Beyond Indigo and can be found through www.beyondindigo.com. We will be redirecting your current URL's to this new domain name but we might miss a few. If that is the case simply go back to www.grieving.com or www.beyondindigo.com to find your message board thread. We will try to make the transition as seamless as possible. 

The bottom line is the new board will give us room to grow our community and more options to interact better with each other. 

If you have any questions please direct them to feedback@beyondindigo.com. 

Kelly Baltzell, MACEO/PresidentBeyond Indigo Family