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On Sept 3, 2016, my world changed forever. My dad suffered a cardiac arrest and was without a pulse for a very long time. The paramedics were about to call a time of death but decided to put him in ambulance and keep trying because my brother was so distraught. Long story short, he had been without oxygen for too long and was put on a ventilator. He could look around the room and sometimes squeeze our hands, but we were told he would be in a "vegetative state" forever. The decision was ours to remove the ventilator and end his suffering because he was a person not the offensive vegetable that these so called professionals so coldly referred to him as. After much heartache and lost hope, we decided to set our dad free. He lived for another week and a half without the ventilator and would still look at us with his big beautiful blue eyes. I so wish I knew what he would've said if he could've said anything. He passed peacefully with his hand in mine on September 20, 2016. The worst day after the worst 3 weeks of my life. Now I'm left with intense heartache and guilt that I had to make that decision and the what ifs? What if they were wrong and his eyes were trying to tell us something? I have had to see a Dr for severe anxiety and insomnia because I think about him all the time. I never want to forget him, but I want to remember him healthy and full of life, but my mind keeps taking me back to those 3 heartbreaking weeks.