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  1. Cry for an ear

    I'm 19 years old and I'm homeless. I am staying in a temp. household. Even tho i'm 19, i feel 9 years old. I walked around and feel like there is no aim or destenation. Ever since i lost my dad, i lost all my family except for my 13 year old brother. I can't lean on him because i have to be the bigger person to him. He was my best friend growing up. It kills me to see him each time. Watching him as he grows up without my dad. I love and apperciate the home i'm staying at, but sometimes I can't get away or have my own things. It's not a getaway or an emotional safe place to be. I don't have my safety zone, and with no family or friends to vistit i have no safety zone out of this home. I go to work and put all my courage into making it through my hours and woking hard. I can't go to a park or public place because it's so cold outside and I can't let my guard down. I'm trapped. No family, no friends, no home. I already have no dad, so i have no clue why the rest is happening. The world can be so cruel and unfair at times. It doesn't help when your only enviorment just isn't a comfort or a peaceful thing. I hope God is really listening to me, I write on here because i honestly don't know where else to go to. It starting to feel like if i can't have a family, friends, a home. After losing the one and only person who had my back. Then maybe I'm not worth anything. or being here on earth.
  2. Cry for an ear

    I'm 19 years old and I'm homeless. I am staying in a temp. household. Even tho i'm 19, i feel 9 years old. I walked around and feel like there is no aim or destenation. Ever since i lost my dad, i lost all my family except for my 13 year old brother. I can't lean on him because i have to be the bigger person to him. He was my best friend growing up. It kills me to see him each time. Watching him as he grows up without my dad. I love and apperciate the home i'm staying at, but sometimes I can't get away or have my own things. It's not a getaway or an emotional safe place to be. I don't have my safety zone, and with no family or friends to vistit i have no safety zone out of this home. I go to work and put all my courage into making it through my hours and woking hard. I can't go to a park or public place because it's so cold outside and I can't let my guard down. I'm trapped. No family, no friends, no home. I already have no dad, so i have no clue why the rest is happening. The world can be so cruel and unfair at times. It doesn't help when your only enviorment just isn't a comfort or a peaceful thing. I hope God is really listening to me, I write on here because i honestly don't know where else to go to. It starting to feel like if i can't have a family, friends, a home. After losing the one and only person who had my back. Then maybe I'm not worth anything. or being here on earth.
  3. Cry for an ear

    I'm 19 years old and I'm homeless. I am staying in a temp. household. Even tho i'm 19, i feel 9 years old. I walked around and feel like there is no aim or destenation. Ever since i lost my dad, i lost all my family except for my 13 year old brother. I can't lean on him because i have to be the bigger person to him. He was my best friend growing up. It kills me to see him each time. Watching him as he grows up without my dad. I love and apperciate the home i'm staying at, but sometimes I can't get away or have my own things. It's not a getaway or an emotional safe place to be. I don't have my safety zone, and with no family or friends to vistit i have no safety zone out of this home. I go to work and put all my courage into making it through my hours and woking hard. I can't go to a park or public place because it's so cold outside and I can't let my guard down. I'm trapped. No family, no friends, no home. I already have no dad, so i have no clue why the rest is happening. The world can be so cruel and unfair at times. It doesn't help when your only enviorment just isn't a comfort or a peaceful thing. I hope God is really listening to me, I write on here because i honestly don't know where else to go to. It starting to feel like if i can't have a family, friends, a home. After losing the one and only person who had my back. Then maybe I'm not worth anything. or being here on earth.
  4. dancin' in the sky

    I lost my dad to heart failure and it's about to be 2 years on the 29th of this month. I wish I could talk to him or hug him. I thought this would fade over time after the first few months passed, but it still hurts the same. I breaks my heart and soul. I can't breathe and i am trapped in this world where i can't find him. It's still hard to believe he is gone. I get so angry that i have his belongings and music with me, because he is suppose to have it. I never knew a life without him, he was always with me 24/7. I'm happy on part he isn't suffering and he is ok. And i believe he is dancing in the sky and is with God. But it all still hurts the same. I want to know where he is exactly? how much happiness is inside of him? is it peaceful? what does heaven look like? does he ever miss me? and if he were to see me will he remember? because i miss him more than anything in this earth and i love him so much. I never thought anyone could feel this much pain that it rips you into pieces each day. I don't know how to move on with my life, he was my life. We shared goals and dreams. I've always been his little girl. He was my hero, my best friend, my daddy, everything i wanted to be and the only comfort i knew. Please help. Im getting desperate each day, because i have not one clue how to overcome losing him or believing it. I knew him for 17 years, how do you continue with someone who isn't here that was around since you came into this world? what do you do? because i can't continue with this. He is gone. He was there 2 years ago, when i would come home. when i would get out of school, day and night. he was always always there at home. And we did everything together. I want to go be with him or for him to be with me. If i could dance with him in heaven i would.
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