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  1. Dear sadandlost Thank you so much for replying I am very sorry to hear of the loss of your mother too, I hope the anniversary passes as easily as it can, I am currently seeing a counsellor and it has definitely helped me release some of the pain I have been feeling. I suppose I will just have to accept that this is not a quick process and it will take time to heal.
  2. My mum passed away in July last year it had been a horrible 2 years before she passed where her health deteriorated slowly, seeing her pass away was terrifying and something that I will never get over. Our relationship was a difficult one however she was my mum and I loved her. I cried quite a bit when she passed away but after that I didn't really, I find it very hard to get my head around that she doesn't exist here anymore. Sometimes when I think about it it takes my breath away. I don't think I have come to terms with her death at all and I don't know how too. When she passed I felt like I was dealing with it really well, I arranged the funeral and looked after my dad along with my 2 sisters and 2 brothers. A few months after I developed acid reflux which the doctor said was created by a stressful event, whilst taking medication for this I became fixated on it and worried I would have it forever, it became all I could think about, I started to develop panic attacks which I had never experienced before they were so frightening. I went to the doctors and was prescribed a beta blocker that would stop the adrenaline but it didn't help to stop the thoughts racing around my head so eventually I was prescribed an anti anxiety medication, which seems to be working a little, I have never had anxiety before and I have never taken so many pills in my life before I feel like I've spiralled out of control. I just want the old me back. The doctor believes it is all centred around my mum passing, can anyone please reassure me that things will get better that I won't be an anxious mess like this for the rest of my life.